Omg Burakoam, I absolutely LOVE this!!! It made me cry but it perfectly describes how I have been feeling! I have a nursery, name, etc....all picked out for a daughter. You spend so much time dreaming about what your dream gender baby will look like and then to have it not happen is so painful. I'm glad you are finally accepting your little girl. It gives me hope that someday, I might end up being happy with this baby. It's funny/cruel how your family of 4 girls is my dream family and you want a boy and that's all I keep getting. Life just isn't freaking fair sometimes[emoji37][emoji37].
My husband pointed out to me that if we decide not to have a 4th, this is my last pregnancy and I really need to enjoy it. He's right, I do, but I'm just not sure how. I feel like I will always think back with sadness about this pregnancy.
Lindz-I don't think it's in our budget to go HT. I have enormous student loans and we don't live anywhere near a HT clinic. We have talked about doing foster to adopt for a little girl. I'm not convinced I want to do that either. Even if we do I don't think it will be the same as having my own flesh and blood. I'm jealous you are going HT next time! I hope and pray it works for you!!!!!
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