Originally Posted by
Butterfly Spirit
So TRUE! I used to watch the ladies on youtube have losses and then get pregnant again, and I never understood their constant worry once they were pregnant again! I Thought: "It's a new pregnancy, it has nothing to do with your loss..it's OK!" Well, once I was in their shoes I knew exactly how it felt! I was terrified even around 12 weeks! I never stopped worrying. My doppler that I ended up using daily for awhile kept me sane! And I just kept praying I would keep this little one and no longer cared about the gender! I watched videos of DS#2 and my heart melted at the thought of another sweet little bundle of blue that would be close me. I couldn't believe the change and I even told my DH. Once you have lost a little life, once you have another little life back.. it's just an amazing feeling as you go through your pregnancy.. safely out of the first trimester, then the middle of the second and finally now the third trimester! It's SUCH a relief to have made it! I know she's happy in there, she kicks me more and harder than my boys ever did and it's like she hardly ever stops moving to reassure me "I'm okay mom! Don't worry about me! And I'll be there soon!"