Does anyone else feel the way I do? I sometimes feel like I'm punishing myself staying active in these forums, the people I started with are now starting to deliver their babies and yet here I am still ttc and I can't help but think I'm going to get bad news tomorrow which is only amplifying my sadness. I am genuinely happy for every bfp that is posted and recieved the same warmth and happiness when I finally got mine, then sympathy and shared sadness when I lost it. I love being a part of this forum, the support is absolutely amazing and like nothing I could get or ask for IRL. I also love supporting everyone old and new in theirs and am a little guilty of feeling especially happy when I see a bfp from someone who has struggled or endured a loss in their journey. I am also very very happy and somewhat envious I'll admit for those who fall pregnant in one or two cycles - but we all want our baby so badly and to see a bfp from anyone regardless of how long they've been ttc is a godsend and offers the hope that maybe it will be my turn next. I'm letting all this out as I don't know how I'm going to cope tomorrow if/when I'm told my eggs quantity/quality are shit - pardon the french please - and I have no idea where to go from there. I'm trying so hard to think the worst so I don't burst into tears before my doc even opens her mouth but I feel so alone right now :( poor dh is being wonderful and has even said 'we could maybe look at seeing a FS but we'd have to investigate costs/time factor etc' I feel bad because he's only doing this for me and I think he only said that because I'm so upset. Anyway sorry for the spill, again its what I said I love about this site so I don't think I could leave here even if I thought I wanted to lol
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