Well ladies, DH and I screwed up (literally...). We BD-d last night unprotected - totally unplanned - a combination of my having some wine and feeling depressed over everything again and DH really wanting to DTD (and he gave me a long massage beforehand - LOL, Pbn just like what happened to you!). This was totally NOT planned - I do not want to get pregnant this cycle and now I'm completely terrified that we will. I've been taking wondfo opks the past few days only b/c I wanted to know what's going on w/ my cycle and when I ovulate, and up through this afternoon they are still negative, but I'm terrified I'm going to O in the next couple of days giving us a very good shot at getting pregnant (I'm super fertile - usually get pregnant on the first try and have gotten pregnant w/1 attempt more than once now). I'm also terrified b/c DH abstained for 7 days (also very unintentional) and with our m/c history and him turning 35 this summer I'm SO worried if we do get pregnant baby will not be healthy and/or we'll just be headed for another m/c. I had a good cry this afternoon and DH is trying to calm me down. I just totally lost my head last night for a few minutes - which I never do when it comes to this! Our baby-making has always been so careful and planned out. Been praying throughout the day and trying to leave it all up to God but I'm so upset with myself. DH keeps telling me if it happens and baby sticks then it's meant to be.
Ugh. Anyways... So I may be joining you guys in the tww in a few days from now.. But not happily :'(