Originally Posted by
hotdogz&boyz
I am sorry I am keeping you all in suspense. My scan is, in fact, today. But not til 1:30 pm EST. So I have about four hours til then. It's also an hour away and I am not mobile. So it might be later afternoon before I can update. I had the best dream last night, but I am quite sure it won't happen in real life. I just can't imagine it actually being a girl. But in my dream the tech clearly knew it was a girl and I wigged out crying and saying "you sure." Then I went shopping immediately. Lol. But the feeling I woke up with, such comtentedness, was hard to let go of. It made me sad to realize it was just a dream and that it didn't happen. I am actually quite scared. I know I will adore a boy and he will be loved so much. But I am so terrified I will lose it if the tech says boy. I just want this baby to be a girl so badly. And lots of things point to girl, which is making it worse. I keep reminding myself that it will be better to know and move on from there than to have this question and suspense for longer. But I am a mess today. Even worse, DH has no idea I am doing this scan. It's a surprise for his birthday. He wants to know the sex and I claim I don't. So he doesn't know at all. He doesn't understand my wishes for a girl anyway, so he won't be disappointed either way. It's probably better that he doesn't know. But I'll be alone there and no one in real life knows I am going today. So I am a bundle of nerves all alone. Except for you ladies, of course.
I am so grateful for everyone in here. I know I am not super active, but I love that people remembered my scan and are waiting for the update. I will try to get on here ASAP with the results. I hope baby gives us a good shot. I am giving DH a package with the correct balloons and the video I get for his birthday. I am rambling now...I just hope I handle it okay when I get there. I can see myself crying before I ever lay down on the table. Lol. I am embarrassed to admit I have done that before (early scan after losses) and I hate how the tech looks at me like I am nuts. It will be worse if it is all over the gender of the baby and not the health. I found him/her on Doppler yesterday, so I am not too concerned with something being wrong. I know baby is alive and well, so it's all about what's between the legs today. Wish me luck...and sanity.
Oh...and this is my third anterior placenta. Had one each pregnancy. Movement for me has ranged from 19 weeks, to 12 weeks, to 15 weeks. From first to third. It does depend on where the placenta is on the anterior. My first was up high and baby liked to be high as well. So I did not feel him til rather late. And even then not regularly or even hard through the entire pregnancy. My second was dead center and I felt him on the sides pretty early. He was an active baby. And this one, is supposedly center as well. But I feel baby and find his/her heartbeat low and slightly right...so I assume the placenta is not dead center. Possibly slightly left?