I understand how stupid this is.. I _know_ it causes me a lot of unnecessary stress. I tell myself every month, "the next cycle i will wait until af is due". -Then something happen! I hate that cheap hpts exist! Before i had my two latest miscarriage i actually had the patience to wait, to at least 12 dpo. Maybe it's the frustration, the grief and the longing for a second baby that bring out this hysterical side of me.
Atomic, i will seriously try to wait for now on and think of you if i get tempted to just crack open the hpt. I understand this isn't good. I won't buy any cheapy hpts anymore.
Back to the drawing board for yet another month, i just know. My gut feeling is usually right. :(
I'm super scared that i won't be able to be pregnant again, i know it doesn't sound that logical, but that's one of my biggest fears. All these thoughts and feelings they makes me kind of panic!