Originally Posted by
kittendreams
Really interesting thread Chez.
I think about this more than I should and battle with my GD demons daily trying to understand 'why?' when I love my two boys endlessly and really quite love boy personalities, energy and interests.
Why aren't they enough?
Why do I want something that doesn't actually exist so consumingly?
Why am I putting such unrealistic expectations on my future happiness?
There are so many aspects to my GD and so many causes for it from being left by my own mum to dealing with people's comments and expectations about my family make up and everything in between.
But I am honestly stumped why this has taken over my life, my experience as a mother and why I am letting something so insidious control me.
I have a long ways to go but one thing is certain I love my boys- not for their gender or because they fulfil some societal expectation but because they are mine, they are vulnerable they need their mum and I need them.
Big hugs to all the parents feeling any kind of GD its a b*%+#!