Would you go for early gender scan on your own?

Hey good to hear from you. I think that feeling will stay for a while and would be for most people. Its normal to feel the past would have been better or was different but we can never be sure of that.
Who knows maybe in future it may happen without even any trying. I think sometimes we want something sooo badly it just doesnt happen for us. Im about 7 weeks now, constant nausea and extremely tired, still waiting for midwife to call to have a booking appointment. I had a bad night where i felt its gonna lead to a m/c like last as around this time the sac stopped growing (although i didnt find out until 9 weeks. Strong feeling its a boy though. Just get lots of vibes, i know people say feeling and emotions are not always promised for a gender sway but i have my feelings.