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do you have a pillow hun? Not that it can be taken with you - my boobs get BIG when BF and find a pillow helps support me and baby x oh lady you have got it rough x BIG SMILES for your well behaved boys though :D x x
am still not accepting this baby at all <sigh> i dont want to feel like this but cant help it next step anti ds think it is the only way now
Hi ladies,
Firstly massive apologies like I start with everytime for not joining in. Believe it or not I do still come on everyday to keep up with everyone but I spose because I'm not even thinking of ttc I find it hard to know what to write as well as my horrific memory remembering who is doing what once I get to writing something. So sorry everyone but I'm still about and think of you all but ive been the worst cheerleader ever- more like super stalker :(
Huge congrats deaks and hugs to everyone who needs one as my heart goes out to you feeling so down. Those were lovely words that maybe wrote the other week and defo hit the nail on the head for me. My dad had the most amazing relationship with my nan and he visited her every week always once but often 2 or 3 times. We was always brought up to see her so often and that's how I hope to have for my boys. Compared to the relationship my mum has with her mum and a couple of my friends have with theirs i get by on the knowledge that not every mother and daughter relationship always work out the way we hope for. I am also extra lucky that my ds 2 loves bags, clothes, cooking, helping with the washing and cleaning, (makeup!!), peppy pig and generally most things I spose a girl would so I get to indulge my dream with him. Definitely not in any kind of position to even think about ttc anytime soon as things are strained again.
Wishing you massive amounts of luck for weds inglewood, amazing that they are so nearly here!! Cannot wait to see pics :)
Poor you maybe, you really are going through it. You are a stronger person than me as I'd have given up in a state of collapse by now. You are amazing!
Huge love to you Charlie xx
Hi to everyone else, hope you are all ok.
Xxxxxxxx
Lovely to hear from you 2monkeys!
I've been a bit bad at posting too recently, been away on a girly weekend, MUCH needed (first time I have been away on my own for 5 years!). Feel so knackered now so off to bed in a min but just wanted to catch up on all your posts.
Charlie- sorry you are still not feeling any better, what was the conclusion they got to last time when you went to see that consultant/ specialist? Will you get councelling? Anti D's really are not bad at all and if it can help you through a tough patch they are def worth a try. ((hugs)) hon :HH:
You too maybe- you so brave struggling on, at least you have a way forward now and it will definitely get easier when he gets seen to. Hang in there. I know how hard it was, it was like that with ds2 and I was literally counting the hours& days until the appointment. You have had a really tough time but it will only get better and easier from now on. Look forward to seeing you tomorrow!!
Love to the rest of you, I am keeping up with your posts and still feel I am in the loop even though I don't post much.
One of the girls I was away with (OLD friend) said 'oh no...I really wanted this to be your girl' etc etc when I told her this was a boy. It was a bit depressing that she couldn't see that this little baby is a blessing and boys are wonderful too. Girls are not the be-all and end-all and it is something I can't control. I wish she could have at least pretended to be happy for me....that's life, good to be able to moan to you about it at least :HH:
I have councilling/pyschotherapist once i get my appointment through a specialist mw coming to check on me, my fabulous doctor phoning me weekly and a consultant plus a specific HV set up after baby arrives GEEZ i know i am lucky to have all this support with ds3 i had nothing but my mood is not lifting like it did with him there are NO names i like and i just feel so detached from him/it - my doctor pushed for me to tell a few people but i cant i havnt told anyone other than my mum and BF and they are sworn to secrecy - am dreading giving birth and having to tell people he is a he
indigo - your weekend away must have been lovely but very strange too after so long x how are you doing now? So sorry your friend wasnt positive although you do sound positive which i hope is true x sometimes i dont think people think before they open their mouths and also if they havnt been where you are they will never quite understand how something meaningless to them means so much to you x sending you a huge hug
Babymad - you are always on my mind too i hope you are ok x pinga thinking of you how are you doing
Waves to everyone else x deaks enjoy your time away x Z - loved the boys room gorgeous white furniture we were thinking of putting all 3 in one room but I wouldnt have anywhere to store all the clothes and toys etc.......but it would have been a possibility if we had a girl dont have to worry about that now
lavender love the website x gorgeous hope you get lots of business x might order some bits when i have some moolah x not being paid at the mo as sick but dont earn enough for sick pay!!
another stress lol
Thanks Charlie! I was signed off sick with ds1 and managed to get stat sick pay but it was nothing compared to actual wages. I hate money stresses. I'm always in my overdraft I Just try and switch off really. Sorry to hear your still finding it hard to come to terms with this baby. Glad to hear about the wealth of support on hand though.
I'm oddly becoming more and more ok with having a boy as the time goes on. Epic fail on the diet front today. Well i did ok up until now. I'm eating midget gems. I just need to ease into it I think before I zone into eating pretty much nothing again. But have put on a good 6lb from eating normally so have weight to shed again.
Maybe your really having a hard time of it I hope you get your stitches seen to soon. My boobs always get huge when feeding I go from a B cup to an F!
Indigo sorry to hear about your friends reaction. For the record I do really like being a boy mum. I love the way they play together. And I like the collective of the 'boys' the 'kids' doesn't have the same ring to it.
Sunset IG as it's what I know and will eventually be able to slip back into the same eating habits .
Waves to two monkeys.
Lovely to hear from you monkeys! Sorry things aren't great ATM. My dh is being a trooper for a change. He is holding us together. Must be carma - has to weigh up his bad side (money) with being a decent bloke in all other respects. He is getting me through this feeding nightmare.
Charlie I really feel sad for you - for all of us. It's such a deep pain that people just don't get. Like ping said about her midwife maybe it never goes. Maybe it's the bottom line until you die. Which makes it a life sentence, and no one wants that. I do think that if you can find good things about all boys then just cling to that. I take the all boy comments as jokes and really notice the nice comments. I get five lovely comments for each bad one. Plus the bad ones are boy general. No one is saying how will cope with your three boys iykwim? If someone said to you that you was worth less than a man you would think what a idiot! You wouldn't think oh yes I am worthless would you? I know it hurts, tbh I think I will want a dd till I pop off, but at the same time I don't let stupid people upset me. There was a sport relife program on with Jon bishop did anyone see it? They had three boys. I said to dh that our boys would be young men like that one day. I looked over and the end where he finished the race dh was crying. Said hee was thinking of our boys at that age. It's not a baby, they will also grow into men to make us proud
Thinking of you inglewood! Good luck!!! Xxxx I bet there will be lots of cooing going on around for a long time to come!!!
Inglewood good luck for tomorrow xx
Charliespie sending you huge hugs Hun xx
Maybe hope it starts to get easier real soon xx
Hello to everyone else xxxx :heart: :)
Hi girls.....
Maybe ~ I hope things get easier soon Hun - BF is so tough, you are doing a great job!! I love John Bishop, went to see him live last year and have booked to see him again this year. It really made us laugh the stuff he was saying about his boys....and the thought of 'oh my god that will be us one day' when they are all grown up :)
2momkeys ~ Hi :) Sorry things aren't great for you, hope you are ok x
Indigo ~ Pleased you had a lovely week-end away, I had a spa day with a friend on Sunday and it was just what I needed. I get fed up with the comments too, I just say 'well I can't choose the sex can I' and that normally shuts them up! When I tell people I am very certain this is a boy its normally a conversation stopper! No one says 'oh that's nice' they just don't day anything or anything nice anyway!....... It's hurts as that's my baby they are dismissing! I hate the pity more than anything.
Lots of hugs to you xx
Charlie ~ I think of you too Hun, wish I could take our pain away I really do. I hate feeling the way I do and would do anything to change it all :(
It's great that you are getting so much support, how did you go about requesting it? I hope we manage to find peace at some point in our lives xx
Inglewood ~ Soooooo excited! Can't wait to hear your news, will be thinking of you, hope all goes well x
I'm doing ok - cant really explain how fed up of being pg I am, everyday is such a drag, emotionally and physically. I long for this baby to arrive soooo much! I know nothing will get better until he is here and things can't get much worse so I desperately need this pg to end so I can start to move forward. If one more person says I am massive I will knock them out!!
Ok better go to bed before I rant all night!