Fish hoping and praying for good news for you and your little girl xx
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Fish hoping and praying for good news for you and your little girl xx
Fish, I agree with the others. It's likely an old toxo exposure so not a current risk at all.
Northern, I'm sorry about your ongoing terrible news. Did you get any guesses as to aetiology (infection vs genetic abnormality)?
Thank you guys for all your support i really appericate it walking the line of not getting hopes up and not giving up
Share some news of lill ones help distract me while I wait ;-)
In car conversation with DS 2 (nearly two) this morning on way to Nannie's house who looks after him while I work
Noah: Naoh have breakfast at Nannies house
Me: yes darling what do you think she'll give you?
Noah: Most excited voice! Chocolate egg!
Me: (thinking possiable but hope not) really or ceral?
Noah: Sad voice; yes ceral
the downside of free, loving, family childcare! he got ice cream for tea LOL!
Awww that's so cute lol
The dr is quite sure its genetic. he was very good and listened to my reasoning about an infection, and then had me back on the bed to test something to do with anaemia which he said would give an indication at least for the parvo virus, and the results gave him the impression it wasn't. They said they'd test all the viruses though too.
Northern, the pills are likely something to induce. If you are inducing and going to the hospital, she will be born alive. You probably need to speak with someone to understand what is going to happen. Are you checking into the hospital at some point?
Northern glad he was so through and listened to you, have you decided against the amnio or are you waiting for results?
I know. I'm not judging you at all. If I knew my child would be severely impaired I would do the same. Just didn't sound like you knew how things were going to go.
With the amnio results, they will likely find the genetic issue at fault but it is extremely likely that it is a totally random event just like my DD.
She is my lightning strike. It's one of those things that "never happens" and I didn't run around in any thunderstorms or have any reason for this to happen but it did. I'm sorry that something has happened to your DD too.
It's shocking when one finds out about something like this and it takes time to make peace with it. I still struggle some days. No judgement from me at all. You have to do what's best for your family. It's not our place to judge at all.
Northern, how utterly devastating. I'm so very sorry. I hate the randomness of this whole baby making gig, there's nothing fair about it at all. I won't be able to get onto the net for a few days after this, but I'll be thinking of you and will pray that things go as smoothly as possible, and that they treat you and Evelyn with care and respect. All she will ever know is your love. I wish I knew what to say that might give you some comfort, or at least give you a huge hug. :(
Fish, still crossing everything that you get some better news soon. Please stop blaming yourself, there is no way you can possibly isolate yourself from all germs, bacteria, or risks, it's simply not possible, so blaming yourself is like adding insult to injury. If only our babies outcomes were diectly related to how much we love them, things would be so much better. Sorry you had a crappy experience at the hospital yesterday, I hope the next one is better and you get more info soon. Waiting and not knowing is torture. Xxx
Northern- I wish I had the words to make everything better. I'm so very sorry. :(
Fish- I agree with everyone else.. Do not blame yourself!! I'll be praying hard that it's an old infection.
Hugs to both of you!!
4Giffins- My ultrasound is tomorrow too! I go one hour after you at 12. What time zone are you in?
Gender u/s tomorrow? That's exciting!
Shiningstar and 4giffins, good luck for tomorrow!
I think Shiningstar and 4Giffins are finding out tomorrow.
Exciting I will be stalking! :)
Northern - I read your blog, my heart breaks for you :(
Northern I too have been reading your blog and with each update I end up in tears. No mother should ever have to go through a loss like this, the word "unfair" just doesn't touch the scale of this. My heart is truly breaking for you and your family. I can tell from your words how amazingly strong you are and although I understand you will never be the same, I know you will come through this.
Good luck tomorrow Shinningstar! I'm glad to know know we are in this together! :) I am in the Pacific time zone so just a little over 12 hours now... I can't believe I will know soon, seems like it took so long to get here, but now I'm not sure that I'm ready! Lol Haven't told anyone about the scan in real life so you guys will be the first to hear! I am very relieved that I wont have to answer to anyone else tomorrow!!
Fish I am very sorry to read your news. I really hope that you get some good news on your little girl soon. xx
4giffins and shining star good luck mot long now!
Northern my heart aches reading your posts. It is not fair at all. I am sorry you didn't get better news today.
I wanted to reach out and tell you that I understand your pain. If you have any questions that I can help you with please feel free to pm me.
I wish you didn't have to go through any of this.
I am so so sorry.
I just read your blog Northern and was so hoping for better news, for a miracle. I am so so sorry this has not happened and I cannot find any words of comfort. Now the only hope I have is that you will make it well through the delivery on Friday. I hope it all goes well. I think it is very brave of you going through the natural delivery. But I also think that this will help you in your mourning process. Do you already have a counselor you (and your DH as well) can talk to? I hope you and your DH can be there for each other.
You are in my thoughts all the time really, and I am praying and hoping you will get through this somehow and get a lot of support from loving understanding people.
Fish, I am thinking of you also. When will you be getting the results of that test? I hope you had taxoplasmosis before December. This waiting must be so hard, not really knowing what is going on. I am crossing my fingers for you, hoping for really good news. We really need that here now. And you need this the most, after what you have been going through.
hey longing results may take up to a week ;-S just constantly praying its an old infection......and the cysts will clear by themselves begining to feel I'm not going to be that lucky thou ;-(
Oh fish, i bet a week feels like a life time away. Praying for good news for you x
Good luck for your scans today Shinningstar and 4giffins. Looking forward to hearing both your news later :)
Northern, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this terrible time!
Fish, hoping that this week passes quickly for you, praying you get good news! :hugs:
so having been on and off crying for past 24hrs called to ask which day bloods will be back and have been told 3-4weeks! what!
Have managed to speak to another midwife who's speaking to the consultant for me to find out why they aren't just giving me antibotics, why don't they do an amnio if results would be quicker and whether think twin 1 is still at risk of miscarridge - ugh i know i'm pregant and hormonal but 4 weeks is that resonable?!
you're all preggie too maybe not a fair sample ;-0
Oh Fish and Northern, my heart is broken for you both. Fish I still have hope for some positive news.
Northern, I wish I could find the words to comfort you the best way possible. I too have been reading your blog, and tears flow after every entry. I'm so devastated for you, life really is cruel sometimes. I pray things go as smoothly as possible on Friday for you. You will be in my every thought.
Good luck to those getting gender scans. I will be stalking. We need some good news now x
4 weeks is not reasonable! Is there anyway to call like you family dr and get them to give u antibiotics!? I would keep calling the midwives til something is done
Fish! 4 wks!! No that is too long. Not fair on you and the anxiety you'll have over those 4 wks will not be good for u or your little girl. I hope you get some answers sooner than this. I just wish I could look into a crystal ball and see the future turn out ok for you. I hope this time passes quickly, I know it will no doubt do the opposite!! But we are always here to talk to to pass the time. Big hugs your way x x x
ah thank you ladies so, consultant on holiday he's going to call tomorrow..........hoepfully should be able to answer some questions!
ladies i belive you have scans today news news news news.......?????
what is the blood work that was given? everyday at this point will feel like a eternity for you!!! whens your next midwife appt? I am very hopfull that things will turn out quite well for you fish... this scares the crap out of me... i cleaned the cats litter box 2 weeks ago cause DH was being a lazy piece of SH*T ... altho im pretty confident that i would have gotten toxoplasmosis when i was younger and dealing with farm animals and cats and dirty stuff all the time....
this fourm really needs some good news so fingers are crossed todays scans see HEALTHY babies....
Dear fish and northern, both of you are in my prayers. I feel there is a hope for your little girl, fish. She is a fighter! Hope you get your results soon.
I can't stop thinking about you and your baby girl, northern. This could happen to any one of us, and if it did happen to me I don't know what I would do.. My NT scan was high risk, but I decided not to do further tests and trying not to think about it. I pray that God gives you strength to live through this rough period of your life. Hope that whatever choice you make, you will be sure it's the only right one for you and your family. xxx
WAG LOL i'm sure you're fine i've never touched a bloody animal in my life ;-S
next midwife appoint is 20 may, scan with specalist 7 may.......
Don't blame yourself, fish. We have always had cats and they even slept in our bed, but somehow I didn't catch any disease from them. Remember being worried about toxoplasmosis when I got pg with DS2 (read about it for the first time then), but blood test came back negative. There is no logic in trying to understand how, where and why you got it. Really hope this is from previous exposure and that your girl is ok.
Any news on the scans today!!?!??