Originally Posted by
LolaInLove
Begonia, it does suck to give the girls over, especially when I know they hate being there and don't get the same love and attention they get with us (which the girls tell me!). But, it is what it is. I am having one of those days where I just want to get this over with and get pg, and am feeling sad and hopeless about it all. I talked to my mom about it last night, but she is not very consoling, although she is a sweet and loving woman, she has never dealt with infertility and is also not one to really "talk" about it. She prefers to just say, "Well, I know it must be frustrating, and I will certainly continue to pray for you." I'm like, FRUSTRATING? Try soul-destroying. Anyway, I think I just have this doomsday feeling, like I've got this 2nd round of Clomid and then one more to try, and then I can't anymore and who knows, maybe it will never happen. My mom said maybe when we "stop trying" it will happen, but you can't stop trying, either I'm trying or I'm not. There is no in-between at this point. If I say we are not trying, but are not preventing, then in my mind, I'm trying. I may not do opks or anything, but I will certainly be watching my cm and cycle and wanting to take hpts, kwim! Anyway, rant over......man, you girls have no idea how much I hope none of you have to do this for as long as I have.