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And I promise I'll stop! This is for Ash and Lola. I won't buy, but y'all need these for next year. I swear stuff is even cuter than it was 3 years ago.
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And I promise I'll stop! This is for Ash and Lola. I won't buy, but y'all need these for next year. I swear stuff is even cuter than it was 3 years ago.
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Max - do great things are looking good. Sorry about bed rest! But i secretly would like one week of it...only because work is so busy.
Blue booties - sorry you heard girl, hope she was wrong xo
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thankyou Kat :heart: im going to stick with it, i almost made it last time but then i caved at my 37 week scan!! haha NOT this time i really want to experience the surprise :) aww i love that you can do that, makes things so much more special when they are personalised and even more so when you do it yourself, please post pics of the monogrammed stuff once you get bits done id love to see :) xxQuote:
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Its not ... i would have done that too if i were in a hurry but i am ok waitingQuote:
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Sumbal great to hear from you and sorry you didn't hear boy. Will you confirm at 20 weeks? Big hugs and hope you're dealing ok [emoji173]
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Aloha!! The majority of you don't know me, so I guess this post is for the few ladies who followed my pregnancy. I will try to spare you as much details (but I'm lonely and have no one to tell my heart to) and tell you exactly what I want you to know right now.
I started feeling kind of off since last Sunday. That feeling like your going to start your period. Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday I started spotting really brown old blood. I assumed it was from my hematoma that was detected in an earlier ultrasound. I never had issues with it. It was pretty small in size. My doctor warned me if I started bleeding not to be alarmed. Late Wednesday afternoon I started experiencing really bad contractions that came every 3-5 minutes lasting 15-20 seconds. I swear it felt just like I was in labor. I tried taking Tylenol but nothing helped the pain I was in. This proceeded well into Thursday night. The bleeding got heavier, bright red and I started clotting really bad. The clots had to be the size of my fist. Friday morning the bleeding started to slow down. I still kept telling myself this was the hematoma and I bet it’s gone or almost gone now..
I went in for my 11/12 week check up, and Harmony blood work this morning at 8am. When I arrived to the office they asked me to pee in a cup. I just knew if I let the pee ****** out something was going to fall out of me. The gestational sac fell into the toilet.... I didn't know what to do so I scooped it up and wrapped it in tissue (I've read people feeling regret flushing it down the toilet). I never experienced a miscarriage before. The doctor did the ultrasound and my once full uterus was now empty.. I feel so hurt, alone (my husband is in Korea), crushed, sadness, anger.. I'm hurt because I never knew my 5 yr old comprehended death... He watched the ultrasound and rubbed my arm and said I'm so sorry mommy :(. My husband called to check up and he told his daddy that the baby died.. The doctor said it’s not my fault, and most times something was wrong chromosome wise and my body did what it was suppose to. He thinks the baby passed a week ago.
Sorry this is all over the place because I'm typing as fast as my feelings are letting me..
Oh Nacire, I am crying reading you..am so so sorry, how cruel :( It must have been terrifying to go through this alone and now the aftermath without your husband there.
I am devastated for you, truly...words can't express how much. Please, don't hesitate to cone here or PM me hon, ok??
The biggest hugs ever, it will be tough for a while, and you will stand strong and get better but for now, grieve, be sad numb angry in shock upset you name it...your boys will be your support your ray of sunlight and they will help you until such time when you feel healed.
In the meantime, just much love and support to you whichever way we can for you my lovely :hugs:
Oh no Nacire how incredibly sad. I am so so sorry for you and your family. Wish we were there to come take care of you for awhile as you deal with your loss. I'm just so sad for you. Biggest of hugs and please keep talking to us, pm me or any of us if you prefer but keep talking and letting your feelings out. Don't bottle them up. Still shaking my head that this has happened to you. Thinking of you and big hugs again xxoo
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Nacire- I am so sorry for your loss.
Nacire - I'm so so sorry to read this [emoji26][emoji26][emoji26] it is so unfair! Take time for yourself to grieve and chat to us as much as you need to xoxo big love
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I'm so sorry Nacire.
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so sorry Nacire :heart: there is nothing more devastating than losing your baby, your son sounds like an amazing little boy i hope you are all doing ok xx
Nacire I'm so sorry to read this. Take all the time you need to heal physically and emotionally. Thinking of you.
NACIRE I'm so sorry. [emoji22] with no one there to cry to please take it out on us. I couldn't imagine the hurt.
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Oh no nacire! [emoji17][emoji24]my heart is breaking for you and your family! You want to talk I'm here. So so sorry. No momma should ever have to experience this pain. So many prayers for you.
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Hi ladies, we have had visitors in this weekend and I haven't been able to check in; however just did a quick scan and saw your message Nacire.
Nacire, I am hurting for you! I am so incredibly sorry and cannot imagine what you are going through. My heart goes out to you in every way. Please let any of us know if there is anything at all that we can do for you!! My best friend had something similar happen later term and I remember the raw emotions. Please know we are all here for you.... I also have a hematoma that is on the larger side. [emoji17]
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Pbn yes I will confirm it soon then will share here.
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Nacire I am so sorry to hear it. This is what happened to me last time. I was in this same pain. I can feel your pain.
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I don't even know what to say ... its just too heartbreaking ... please talk to us, we r always here for u please dont feel alone
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Nacire- My heartbreaks for you and your family [emoji25]! I will be sending lots of strength and healing your way. Know that we are all here for you. This is just so incredibly unfair [emoji35][emoji25]!
(((Huge Hugs)))
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Nacire - SO sorry for you!! Know we are here if you want to talk [emoji175]
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Nacire - My heart is hurting for you, I've been through nothing more painful than my miscarriages and I hate that you are now walking through this journey. Take time to heal and time to grieve. Praying for you :(
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Nacire, thank you for being so brave and sharing. I'm so sorry you are going through this. I had a MC at 6 weeks and it was devastating. I can only imagine your pain right now. I remember feeling like I'd never heal, but you will. How amazing of your son to be there to support you. Please send him some hugs from me, and big hugs to you too. We are all here for you. ❤️
Nacire-this absolutely breaks my heart! So unfair! What a brave & caring son you have there! Wise beyond his years & there for mommy in time of need. I'm so sorry for the pain you're feeling and that you're going through this alone IRL, but please know that you're not alone with all of us here for you!! Share with us anytime you need to talk [emoji173]So many prayers headed your way!
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This is the interstate through my town right now! 🤣 these people are trying to get 1.5 hours south of me..... don't think that's going to happen before the eclipse starts in 7minutes!
My plan to lay the little ones down and watch in peace and quiet lol not like they'll remember anyways plus it's going to be a total here again in another 7 years. But on another note if this heat doesn't give in soon i might very well have a heat stroke!
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Haha, Ash! The next total is in 8 years in April and Carbondale is the the total path again! It will also include Danville, which is closer to where I live. My kids will be 15, 12, 10, and 8 so I'll pull them out of school to see it!
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We aren't to far from each other xx. [emoji4] where I'm located is 98.6% covered so good enough for me!
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We are close! I'm in 97.3% range!
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Ok, I obviously have not done my research, but why is everyone saying this is a once in a lifetime event if it's happening again in several years?
Max - you hanging in there on bedrest? I'd be going crazy!! Were girls ok with missing Disney? Or did they know?
So I'm 15+ weeks and already get sooo full so fast. Is this bc it's my 3rd? Anyone remember this happening faster and faster each pregnancy? It's like I eat a 1/2 sandwich and chips and I'm stuffed but I wanna eat more bc well you know I'm pregnant [emoji23] Also, isn't it crazy that I can go from food being my worst enemy to wanting to eat everything in site?! Pregnancy is so weird and I'm already getting sad this is my last time!!
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OMG Ash that traffic jam!! haha bet the people driving down the other side are feeling smug with themselves ;) nothing worse than sitting in traffic.
kat slightly off the topic of your post but its amazing how our normal (non-swaying) eating habits have such a big influence on the genders we have, you sound like your naturally (without swaying) very girl friendly :) i would never have put my 4 boys down to me picking at food here and there all day because i couldnt stomach big meals.. amazing what swaying teaches you!
to all of you in the US enjoy the eclipse :D sounds like it will be an amazing thing to watch!!
4b2p - I know!! I don't like feeling full, it's weird but promise I don't have an eating disorder [emoji5] The HE diet was so uncomfortable for me and I was only on it 4 weeks, which longer is recommended. I just had no idea I'd fall pregnant so fast.
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Ok good Blue - just this weekend I was like this isn't suppose to be happening so soon!
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no i get it kat i hate feeling full too!! but i fell into the habit of having a couple of mouthfuls here and there throughout the day to avoid having to eat meals in one go, im not a big eater and never was, i also never eat a lot of the HE foods (red meat, nuts, avocado, veg juices etc..) i basically shot myself in the foot by spreading my food intake out over the whole day instead of just putting it into 2 normal size meals, i dont do breakfast, last time i did i was about 8!!
in all honesty i think id really struggle with the diet if i was here swaying blue, i know that must sound daft haha but i cant cope with big portions and alot of what you guys are eating and drinking for best results is stuff id never want to go near :-/
Kat, because where people live they may not get to see a total solar eclipse or close to one. Where Ash and I live, we are fortunate to have another one in 2024 close to where we live. Sadly, after that we won't unless my children move somewhere exotic!
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Thank you everyone for all your kind and encouraging messages! It actually made me feel surrounded by love and replaced the loneliness I'm feeling. Your thoughts and prayers made me cry even more, but in a good way. Dealing with all of this feels extremely hard. Loss is so hard for me because we didn’t just "lose a baby" we lost a lifetime. We lost all of the plans, dreams, and hopes we had for this life with this little person. I don’t know how to let myself grieve. I’m scared to be vulnerable and just cry, because I don’t want my kids to see how broken I really am… I cry myself to sleep at night while my kids are peacefully sleeping in their beds. I can’t help but wonder if this was my little girl.. This little girl that never comes..
Can someone tell me how do I move forward without feeling like I'm replacing/forgetting the baby that was never born? When I’m ready to start trying again where do I start? This pregnancy I had zero appetite and lost 15 pounds in these past 3 months. Is all the previous months working up to the original sway lost?
NACIRE I do know ttc as soon as you can after m/c sways girl. But wait until your ready. Just get back into the diet and see where it takes you! I took me 3months after my m/c to get a Bfp again and it was emotionally hard I was angry and I took it out on dh because I didn't get pregnant faster but hindsight my anger was probably preventing the Bfp sooner.
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Naci I cried to myself at night after my losses it really helps to just cry. It's part of the healing and you always have us to talk to as well. So many hugs to you! It's very unfair! The pain eases it truly does. I kept myself sain by buying things for my future rainbow baby and focusing on my babies. Also pick up a hobby. You will never replace your baby, but it does actually become easier throughout time. You will always have a hole though, but through time it won't hurt as bad. As of right now it feels that it will never get any better, but it truly does.
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Hi ladies! Believe it or not with bedrest I've found things to keep me busy. I picked up a from home consulting job (that I can do from bed woohoo) about 20 hours/ week, which has been awesome. My mom taught me how to knit (I made a little blankie for DD2 that she slept with last night, so cute!), I took my acrylic paints out and started painting again, and I now am an expert on any show on Bravo (for you ladies in the US). Not ideal because I miss normal life and the gym soooo bad, but I guess trying to do the best I can. I started spotting brown over the weekend and it isn't stopped, so I'm back to laying down in my bed or on the sofa, and my parents took the girls for several nights so I'm able to just rest. I go to the OB tomorrow and hoping to see baby.
Nacire, we are all here for you!!! Your words brought tears to my eyes. I can only imagine the lost hopes, etc, but that doesn't mean that you can't (and won't) have that girl... XX told me once that it just takes longer for some babies to come to us (she can word it much more beautifully). You will have your healthy baby! [emoji175]
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Sunbal, hope the tech was wrong and that it's your boy! However glad to hear that baby is healthy.
Bluebooties, about the four kids and feeling bad on missing time with them. As one of four, I definitely had that feeling with my mom (who was super woman and worked full time, baked every meal from scratch, never lost her patience, and was just insanely loving)...but I did and do still feel that the things I missed out with my mom, I also gained from my sisters, and those to me were just as valuable. When my mom couldn't come to a practice, my sisters would and it meant so much to have them there (and sometimes cooler than your mom hehe). Just saying that yes, it's hard as a parent, but they also get so much from their siblings that's also so precious.
4blue, thank you for such kind words about my sway and helping you feel you were doing the right thing for your kids with additional siblings. Wow, so amazing to hear that!!! Thank you! [emoji175]
Kat, I seriously feel like you're my long lost twin. [emoji23] DH and I talked about adopting if we ever want to have another. We actually looked into it this year when it was taking us a while to get pregnant. Such an amazing thing to do!! I'm so excited to hear that you're happy with boy or girl. I've gotten into the same mindset. I've seen DH with little boys lately and it makes my heart melt. So happy either way as long as baby is healthy! And to your comment on being full so quickly, yes!!! Totally me lately and it sucks. I also feel like I'm showing big time and I'm only 8 weeks. [emoji85] I didn't show at all until 6 months with DD1. I'm embarrassed to even take a pic because I have a naturally small frame and I feel huge already!! And the girls didn't know we were going to Disney, so we're keeping that in our back pocket for another time. Well just do beach time together that week. Will be perfect. [emoji4]
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