Aurora, I prefer people being honest, I'd hate to have false hope and fall harder. Lavenderlime - I've been in dressing gown all day and managed soup but am starving now so braving some chips. I can't wait to feel well again, puts me off having a 4th! Indigo - I think I was saying how I can imagine having all my boys at the table for tea and being the only female there and this being a special thing because they would feel more connected, where as if I had a girl I think they would feel our relationship would be different. Boys really take on board what they learn from their mums and I think they always think of their mums as the number 1 women to rely on. My brother has a great relationship with my mum, they don't argue where as me and my mum have loads. My mum and I have only been close over the last 2 years after I told her to stop being so full on. So even though I crave that mother daughter relationship for myself, I think sometimes that can be a biy of an imaginary dream at times.

