Originally Posted by
Burakoam
Anyone that can help...really struggling here.
I am really 'wired' right now. I dont know thats the proper term. Maybe anxious IS the right term its just when someone thinks about anxiety on a normal basis im not sure this is what they picture. But im very edgy, extremely irritated and frustrated and real fast to go from 0-100. i had a panic attack waiting for a prescription for DD3, hyperventilating and crying. I havent had this in any of my other pregnancies. My blood pressure is elevated but OB says textbooks say i am not far enough along for it to be pre eclampsia or anything like that. And its not sky high or anything like that to be fair. But i feel like i am totally losing my shit. I cant live like this and so i am desperate. ive tried meditation, calming music, "me time" (not sure i can really get that right now with a sick baby though) but i cant wipe stuff off my plate today to loosen the stress hold...I have got to get this bedroom cleaned and scrubbed down and then because DH is a slob i'll have a ton of pop cans and dishes to do in the kitchen.
I literally sat in the car at the pharmacy screaming and beating my steering wheel because the guy ahead of me was there in the pick up line for 30 FREAKING MINUTES. 30 MINUTES. 3 cars in the other lane (which i was too far pulled ahead to switch into) left before he left. Its like he waited in the drive through, meant for fast pick up, for them to FILL HIS PRESCRIPTION. HOLY. CRAP.
I feel like a tv or movie joke. I know this is the running joke of what pregnant women are always like but i have never had this pregnant or not. I genuinely feel so heavy in my chest i swear i am dying. And if i call my OB i only see negative outcomes coming from this...worst of which is i'll be committed because thats what i feel like at this moment is a crazy person.
help.