Hang in there! I know you can do this! I believe your desire for a son is much stronger. You just have to believe that and refocus the desire to control things to something outside of yourself. Maybe relocating the controlling urge will help. It works for me most of the time. I relocate mine when it happens to cleaning/organizing my house. My kids have learned to leave mommy alone or help out. At least it's productive instead of destructive. This is just a part of who we are. Give it a try.
(((Hugest Hugs)))
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