Originally Posted by
bluebonnet22
Well I finally got my Maternit21 results and I'm very relieved the babies are healthy (at least chromosomally speaking). I also found out they detected a Y chromosome - as I suspected. Unfortunately now I'm in limbo and won't know for another 3 weeks whether there are 2 boys or one boy. I never wanted more than one daughter, so I'm not really that upset that it isn't 2 girls. That being said I'm currently petrified I'm carrying 2 boys. The idea of 3 boys under 3 is terrifying to me! I'm so worried karma is going to damn me to having 2 more boys. After having DS, I got asked many times what I wanted next - I stupidly said many times "anything but twin boys". I could kick myself now because it seems that is my destiny. I feel guilty for swaying pink, guilty for wanting a daugher, and guilty for being terrified of twin boys my entire life. I know I will eventually love them and make peace with it, but right now it's hard. Thanks for listening.