Due in Sept/Oct/Nov 2015

Omg I ended up having a rotten mother's day! It's always bitter sweet since my mom is gone. My boys made me breakfast and i got flowers and that was nice. Then my uncle passed away later yesterday morning. He had cancer and I just knew he'd go on mother's day. So that was hard. Then around 2 pm while at my inlaws for a yummy dinner I got sick, and I mean sick! Diarrhea and vomiting. I was puking till around 10 last night and diarrhea kept on throughout night and this morning. I had body aches and didn't sleep all night. Went to my ob and got 2 bags of fluids this afternoon from dehydration. Ugh! But the topper on my crap day yesterday was at one point I got on fb to take my mind off of how bad I felt and saw this girl from HS who I cannot stand, announced her 2nd born will be a girl! Her first was a boy and I was so hoping she wouldn't get her perfect family, everything in her life seems ridiculously perfect from the outside looking in. I just about lost it and would have cried had I had the strength or fluid in me.
It's just one more person getting a girl, or their girl. I have little hope I'll get mine at this point. Nub guesses can't be that reliable or there'd be more science. I felt like none of this seems worth it for another boy. I know that sounds awful and I know I'll love this baby even if it's a 3rd boy. It just made me think that I hope i can change my mindset. I border on depression in daily life and all I could think was of was having 3 kids and already having my sanity and bank account strapped and NEVER having my daughter on top of that!!! That feels like a horrible thing to me.
I unfollowed her on fb so I don't have to see her get everything she ever wanted anymore. And I'm sorry to vent here. This rant probably belongs on GD forum. I'm just so bummed. I know 3 people having boys and all you gals + a handful in my daily life having girls and there just has to be boys out there. I have to get on with life and deal with whatever is ahead for me, June 9th can't come soon enough.

I'm sorry you had such a rough day EmJ! It sounds like it couldn't get any worse really! I hope it will only go upwards from here. FB is the worst trigger for GD, it's so annoying.

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Big hugs Emj! What an awful way to spend Mother's Day! And it's ok to rant here- we all get it. I still get super annoyed when I see boy-girl families happen around me. It's just unfair. I hope you are feeling better today. And remember... somebody else getting a girl doesn't take your girl away.


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So sorry Emj. Sounds like an awful day. Seems like you had food poisoning? That is the worst. Like the others said...vent away. I too get very envious when i see others getting what I want and it seems to be everyone. So unfair. I hope today goes better for you...june 9th with come quickly enough and you will know for sure what your future holds..which is hopefully your daughter!

Ugh yes hoping for better days ahead. Feeling better but certainly not 100%. Kids are making recovery hard today. Thanks for all of the kind words. You gals always seem so positive and I feel like I must be the only downer. Nice to know you have bad days too.

Oh gosh! I was such a downer my first 12 weeks of pregnancy...and then some. I was soooo sick! It was one thing after another including members of my family passing away. Thankfully things have gotten better!

Who else is waiting to find out gender? Pretty sure there are a coulple ladies still who don't know yet.

EmileeJane- Oh my! Be gentle with yourself! You've been through a lot. I think it's natural to feel the way you do about getting a DD. My DH feels the same way- that everyone else is getting a DD that we are probably going to get another DS. Hang in there sweetie. Remember what happens to other people doesn't impact what can happen to you!

Rosie- I have my 13week 5 day US on 6/2 so we will probably have a good idea of what we are having then. I'm getting blood drawn at that time for MaterniT21 so we should have the results by my appointment on 6/10!


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It's so hard to think that what happens to others doesn't mean anything for me. That's what everyone keeps saying it just seems like it has to even out somewhere. I'll try to be more positive.
Exciting to know your scan is soon Xx! So the blood test your getting will confirm gender results? Is that something your physician offers or is that extra and separate like the harmony test?

My OB offered it to me since I'm over 35 (I turned 35 this past Sept), and my insurance covers it at the same cost for the quad screen. We decided to go with the MaterniT21 since it is a better genetic screen and we get the bonus of knowing the gender.


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Only the MateniT21 though is offered at my OB's office for the same price as the quad screen BW, for women 35 and older. The other tests cost more like harmony and panorama. I still get the NT scan and the anatomy scan too included in my package.


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