Originally Posted by
Charlee
Sorry I've been m.i.a lately... I've been having a super hard time with gd, and being on here makes it worse I think. I know I have no right to even have an ounce of sadness, but my rational mind just can't quite grasp that right now. I know I will love this little man, and I will be so happy when he's born, but right now I'm still mourning the loss of my 3 child dream... my dream of 2 boys and a girl. That was always my dream family... and I almost had it and it was taken from me. Now I have to rethink my idea of "perfect"...
I was doing okay at first, but obviously reality hadn't set in or something. I have moments where I'm totally fine and happy, and then 10 mins later I'm crying. I think this makes me sound totally looney haha
Clearly I need a reality check or something...