The big gender scan is tomorrow. One minute I'm totally calm and at peace and the next I'm freaking out. I'm expecting to hear that it's a boy because our nub shot got all boy guesses. But there's still that last little tiny bit of hope that's making things difficult. DH isn't convinced that it's going to be a boy and somehow that makes it harder for me. My ultrasound is at 8:30 tomorrow morning so at least I won't have to wait all day. We can go ahead and get it over with. Maybe I'll be able to go do some shopping. Retail therapy usually helps me with GD. And I want to come up with a cute way to tell the boys that they'll have a new brother. Even if I'm not very excited to hear boy, I think they will be. Making it special for them will help me feel better too.
I'm totally dreading all of the comments that we'll get. I know they're coming and I truly think that's the worst part. I made the mistake of putting it on FB that our scan is tomorrow. One lady commented "I hope it's a girl. It must be rough being the only female in the house." So annoying. Then another lady said that she hopes its a girl so that my Dad can finally have a granddaughter to dote on. Yeah, I wanted that too. But it probably won't happen (at least not from me. My brother might be able to help him out). I get soooo defensive at people's stupid comments that I probably over do it in trying to convince them that I'm perfectly happy with boys. I really need to come up with some witty comebacks. But I guess that comments are just something that I'll have to deal with for a while.
I'm just ready to officially know that it's a boy so that we can move on. All of the waiting and guessing is worse than just knowing that it's another boy. We make cute little guys and there's no doubt that #4 will be the same. I'll love him and be happy. There will be bad days for GD (especially around Easter and Christmas. Those holidays always make my GD worse). But as long as there are more good days than bad I'll be ok.
