Just found out - please help
I am 21 weeks & found out yesterday the gender. I will admit I have never been maternal & didn't think I really wanted a child until my husband and I decided at reaching 30, it was kind of now or never. Having sad that, I have grown up knowing I would only ever want one child and it had to be a girl - to the point my friends actually joke at my bluntness of not wanting a boy
Well obviously I have found out that we are due a boy
I am full of a million different emotions & I really need some help getting passed them. I have found an ounce of comfort finding this site & knowing I'm not abnormal. But I still feel sick to the stomach & am struggling to stop the tears (I'm an emotional & fairly negative person at the best of times!)
I'm pleased I appear to have a healthy baby & of course grateful I conceived with no issues and pregnancy has been fairly easy so far - but then this adds to the guilt I feel and makes me feel worse. Especially with knowing people who struggled / struggling to convince, have had babies born with health problems & have had horrid pregnancies
The my biggest fear - what if I can't bring myself to love my child? I feel like I'm not sure if I do now & how the hell is that going to change? I have read people say it all changes when the baby is born, but I can't go the rest of my pregnancy feeling this way.
I have a couple of friends who are pregnant (they aren't finding out the sex) I'm now convinced they will have girls & am starting to resent them, which is just crazy!
Please please tell me what I can do to get over this & soon - thank you for reading & helping