Growing up, I always knew I wanted to have a big family. DH & I both agree that at least 3-4 kids would be awesome.
After having my gorgeous 2 DS, Im starting to reconsider...
I know that I have the ability to love at least 2 more children and if I don't do it then I know ill always regret stopping at 2 BUT:
I think my decision ATM to stop is because I'd rather have 2 sons than 3. :(
I really never thought I would say that as I'm a strong believer in never trying to have a particular gender but rather, try to get a healthy baby.
Im so afraid to fall pg and then have a scan and hear 'it's a boy!' again. I feel sick thinking about it now.
Im so angry at myself that I have let my obsession with having a daughter get to this.
Im so angry at the fact that not a day goes by without some insensitive moron saying "Are you going to try for a girl" or "you'll have another boy''.
Has anyone else felt this way and actually gotten their desired gender, even though they never thought they would?
I guess one positive is that no matter how much GD I have after finding out the gender, I know that I will love that 3rd DS and just mourn the DD I didn't get. I would NEVER take it out on my precious little boy.
I just feel so helpless and stressed out. Its hard not being able to admit your true feelings to anyone in RL, let alone yourself. :broken: