Hi girls thought I'd make a thread for when we feel down and need some support.
That's me for the past few days I feel so sad/depressed I have tried to get on with things but its eating me alive.
I feel like I need to plan a sway or give myself some slight hope that I won't feel like this for the rest of my life, Like she's missing. Or do I give up the dream?
Don't get me wrong I will love and adore this little boy when he comes and gd will be the furthest thing from my mind when he's born. But I know it will only last a few weeks before it comes sneaking back in how/when/what to do to tip the balance to get my dd.
but what if it fails again I don't think I can physically do this to myself again. Also I don't think I can spend the rest of my life wondering what if I did try again and it worked why can't it be simple. Aaaaagggrrrhhhh!
I saw this beautiful little girl the other day just how I imagined my dd would be and I nearly cried in middle of the shop she was so sweet helping her mum,
Then her dad turn up and scooped her up in his arms it was so magical but stupidly so simple. I felt like I died inside that the reality that I may never have that, never have my dd and some people get it with out even trying.
Then I realised my two older boys where packing away the shopping chatting away to ds3 in the push chair all good as gold and it struck me how lucky I am to have such lovely helpful boys, I wouldn't change them for the world but I just want her too. I suppose I'm just greedy and selfish to want it all but my feelings won't stop.
If anyone has any wise words to make the longing go away please share!!!!!