Just got BFP...gender dissapointment already?!
A little background...I've been a lurker here for awhile and started swaying girl late summer. I didn't follow it very strictly and think I already tend to follow a girl friendly diet (no red meat, no extra salt, etc) I didn't cut caffeine, but drank lots of peppermint tea and crystal light. Used sylk a few attempts and only supplements I took were Vitex w/B6 & Maca (had issues with long cycles), magnesium, and cranberry around O date. We ended up BD'ing day 3, 2, 1 leading up to ovulation. I believe we conceived in a Capricorn new moon phase (oct 19th):pinksperm: :fx: :pinksperm:
I got my BFP on Halloween!!
The reason I am posting on here is because I feel I'm already having some gender disappointment already. I have a feeling this baby is a boy, although we did somewhat sway girl. Although a part of me feels it's just a coping mechanism as I've always felt my DH and I would have a little girl as our first. To make it more complicated, our good friends are also pregnant and due a few weeks before me. I can't stop obsessing--what if they have a girl? Their diet appears to be very boy friendly. I know I should stop obsessing and that it's still super early, and that gut instincts can also be wrong. I just feel horrible that I'm not overly excited because I'm nervous I'm having a boy. With all this said, I am grateful to God that we were blessed with a little one to love no matter the gender and will love this baby all the same regardless...I just had always hoped and dreamed to have a little girl.
I guess my question is have any of you ladies also feel like your subconscious is preparing you for the opposite gender you had hoped for?? Thanks so so much for listening and happy to finally be posting!!