What is the best way to 'Untell' this
So in my excitement of pregnancy I told most of my colleagues that I'm having my gender scan on Dec 1st.
Though I've not told anyone about my desire for a girl, not even hinted, I'm constantly getting lots of 'oh hopefully it's a girl' and 'i cant wait till you tell me girl so i can buy you pink' comments. My usual response is 'i don't mind what it is as long as its healthy' but that still doesn't stop them. (Maybe its because I'm a very girly girl?)
I've even had one comment that really upset me ("what a disappointment if its a boy")
Anyway, I'm pretty certain it's a boy, and I'm worried that i will temporarily be a bit more sensitive, and the last thing I'm going to want to deal with is more flippant "oh dear" comments, at least not till I've dealt with it completely myself. And the last thing I would want is for any of those people to sense any sadness that I may have.
So I want to somehow un tell people about the scan, but how?
Should I say we cancelled it? But what reason would wash given my previous excitement?
Should I say they double booked me and phoned to reschedule?
Or not say anything till Monday when I get to work and then say they couldn't see any gender coz of baby's position (if its a boy)?
I feel so guilty and so horrible and nasty for wanting to hide the gender if it's a boy :( but I just feel I need to process it myself before having the strength to tell people and dealing with the comments. I also hate lying. So at the moment I'm feeling very very guilty.