Thirteen days until my ultrasound. DH does not want to find out, but says I can. Not sure what I should do. If I do find out the only place I can share is on the internet with people who do not know us. My mom will tell people she could not even keep my pregnancy a secret like I asked. She told my Aunts. She keeps telling me she will keep it a secret. Today she told me that I should tell her because my Aunt said if it was a girl they will have a shower for me. My family only has one shower and technically I had two one for my 1st and one for my second. Since my 1st is not my husbands and MIL wanted a small shower for me. It kinda made me sad that the only way I would get a shower if it is a girl. Everyone usually gets an outfit or something anyway if it is a boy so I figured it would be same for a girl.
I keep looking at my 12wks ultrasounds but no definate nubs. Then I keep thinking of DH's family and how at least 2-3 of the same genders are born in a row. The last baby that was born was last Feb and was a girl. I keep thinking well maybe it could be.
Since DH does not want to find out we been narrowing a list of girl names as well since if I do find out it would be totally obvious if it was girl if I decided to talk about names all of a sudden. So that is been hard for me. Our only boy name is Owen or Irish spelling Eoin(he wants it spelled that way).
Just feeling down today for some reason.
