I'm back here in the loss section :(
So today I had some bleeding so I went to the hospital to get it checked out and unfortunately the baby stopped growing at 8w 2d.
After having a scan at 7wks and seeing a healthy heartbeat I was feeling more optimistic. I did start to get concerned as my nausea had almost gone away after the scan but I tried to keep remembering that every pregnancy was different so it could be normal for this baby.
Tomorrow I go back to have a medically managed miscarriage. After my last experience of losing too much blood and needing 2 blood transfusions I didn't want to do it at home but I also want to avoid another d&c if possible.
At the moment we are thinking we are done with trying for a 3rd baby and will be happier with just our two boys. I honestly don't know if I can go through with the anxious wait of another 1st trimester and even worse another miscarriage.
Thanks for all the support of this forum. I will probably take a break and I'm not sure if I will feel up to returning. This make me really sad too as I would like to see how everyone goes with their pregnancies and also see if those who have been ttc with me have some success but it also hurts seeing what could have been for me too.
I might come back in a few days to provide an update on how it goes, I'm a bit scared but at least they will be there to keep an eye on my blood loss.
I really didn't think I would be so unlucky to lose 3 out of my 5 pregnancies :(