Update: BFP and I turn 47 in 4 days time!
Atomic.....you won't believe this! I don't want to jinx myself and I haven't told anyone as yet (except for a few cyber friends) but I got a BFP on the 11th October. My last AF started on 14th Sep so obviously it's early days.....VERY early. The cycle prior to this one I had started on a supplement called Premular and the DHEA and I had also gotten into my aerobics dvds again. I had all but given up on ttc and had made a gp appointment to get a referral to a specialist to see about getting my right leg varicose veins treated prior to our Summer commencing (my right leg is really bad and only surgery will fix it), had been browsing gorgeous swimsuits online and doing aerobics after DH buying me a good pair of Brooks runners in the aim of getting into good shape for Summer and getting fit again. Well, you can imagine my surprise when Fertility Friend advised me 'period was due yesterday' and I did a test and got a very faint line. Anyway, since my first pos HPT on 11th Oct the line has been getting darker (I test every second day). I have had 2 beta draws done. My first beta done on CD 29 (15 DPO) was 111 and the one done the next day (I hadn't realized I should do it every second day) was 205. I had another beta taken yesterday and will get that result tomorrow morning. Mind you, the old indian lady doctor who gave me my first result was quite rude and started off her sentence with, "unfortunately...…." But I ignored her and let it be like water off a duck's back, so to speak, as she didn't realise that I was even ttc at my age.
Anyway, I am not assuming anything about this pregnancy this time. I am just taking it one day at a time and telling myself that if it doesn't work out this time, at least I KNOW I am capable of getting pregnant. Part of me is still in denial I'm sure. I have the paperwork to get a scan done at 6-7 weeks but I haven't even called to book that in yet as I am scared of jinxing it. And I'm not sure of what care plan I would do if it works out. For my other 3 children and the MC in 2015 I saw an obstetrician, but I don't want to go back to that one I saw and I'm not that keen on the FS I had been seeing on and off in the last few years either. I don't really want to see any kind of ob or FS for the whole of this trimester, if I make it through.
Anyway, sorry for rambling on. I just wanted to update you Atomic as I am forever grateful for all the help and advice and encouragement you've given me the last few years. And to share with my other GD friends. I will keep in touch and keep you updated on my progress. I can't allow myself to get fully excited just yet.