no luck TTC first child, trying since August. both 35
DH and I have had no luck TTC since August, I know it's not a long time by any stretch, only 3 cycles but we’re both 35. I started a new job in September so it’s not a big deal if it doesn’t happen immediately because FMLA wouldn't kick in until after 12 months. But still, every month I get my period, the disappointment and the anxiety grows.
I was gung ho about the HE diet when I started in June but I’ve backed off a little since mid-Sept. I gained 5lbs and none of my dress pants fit for my new job so I’m now loosely following it, just not quite the same calorie volume. Also been more diligent about going to the gym, even if I’m just walking on treadmill for 45 mins.
I’ve been paranoid about infertility because of my age for years, I know that is silly (my Drs think I’m crazy) but I tried so hard to prepare myself for TTC months ahead of time. Checked all the boxes: annual physical, preconception appt w obgyn, reducing caffeine & alcohol, taking prenatals, going to light cardio, switching to organic, temping w Ava bracelet & charting, OPKs, Guaifenesin, preseed, DH made changes to: wearing boxers, using pillow to rest laptop, sleeping naked. The list goes on!
Who knows though. I know it'll happen when and how it’s supposed to, and this is probably a much needed lesson for me to learn…I can’t control everything despite how much I prepare. But it’s getting to the point where I feel like a failure. Everyone around me is pregnant - every week we find out about someone else getting pregnant unexpectedly which is so awesome, but at the same time, just adds more pressure for some reason. Not to mention the holidays are coming up and I'm dreading being around our families, listening to the comments asking when we’re going to fill our house with kids.
Sorry, this was a long vent. I don’t talk about it with anyone else except DH and he just doesn’t know what to say, except that I should stay off social media and maybe see a counselor if it goes on much longer.
Anyone else over 35 have tips or advice that they can offer, either in helping get a BFP or just generally, how do you cope w the disappointment & anxiety? I'm going to add us to the wait list for Infertility Clinic in case this goes on much longer. January will be 6 months and I think it'll give me some peace of mind that we have a date in place if we don't get pregnant soon.