Originally Posted by
Katie.Z
Hi Lailanella. I am here with you feeling what you are feeling. really out of sorts. About a week away from my sway and my husband told me last night he’s concerned that I have situation depression. I feel so anxious about the whole thing that I feel like there is a weight sitting on my chest, physically, and where usually the feeling comes and goes it’s been here to stay the last week or so. I have kinda lost my appetite but I am continuing to eat because I’m swaying blue and it’s crucial. But yeah I don’t recognize myself lately and I’m really concerned that my nerves will sway me the other way.
It’s the biggest decision. It’s adding a life, changing the dynamic of our family, of our marriage, everything will change. Although none of that really scares me, I’m most nervous to feel that gender disappointment, that lingering feeling of sadness, those endless comments from family and friends. I just dread that
Anyway I’m so here with you. Yesterday I literally cried all day because the thought of swaying makes me so nervous and the thought of quitting makes me sad. Im so not a crier, but this is Whoa an emotional rollercoaster. I can’t say anything ever has get like this.
I think also because many of us build up our sways (in our heads)over the years, we think so long about it, it gives us hope and happiness to think we can attempt, but when it’s here it’s reality and it’s down right overwhelming.