Having to wait and now 2nd guessing everything!
We were planning to sway this Fall but for a few reasons decided to wait until February at the earliest. I'm ok with this so I can continue with my diet and weightloss. However, as crazy as this sounds, I'm starting to wonder if the Universe is telling us no more kids. Part of my sway has been praying, asking for signs, etc and I did my first psychic reading. She told me I would conceive a boy in February. I know I shouldn't put much thought into the reading but it was weird that she got the month, plus the date she said I'd conceive on is right before I should ovulate that month and a couple of other details that no one would know. I keep thinking what if she's right about it being another boy? I know swaying isn't foolproof but at least I feel like it gives me some control. Between that and worrying about my age (I'd be 39 or 40 when I deliver) I'm wondering if us needing to wait is a sign to not even try. I'm not really asking a question since no one can predict my future...just wondering if anyone else has had similar doubts and questions. I want a daughter so bad but I just keep questioning if it's my fate. Why is this so hard?!