Having a very hard day- TW mixed gender family
Had a hard day today and looking for a little encouragement. Had my 12 week ultrasound and bloodwork done yesterday. Thank God baby looked healthy and active. I was 12 weeks 3 days by very accurate dating but measured 12 weeks 6 days which is pretty normal for my previous pregnancies. Tech said it was too early for her to tell but she’d “say boy because of the angle” (of the nub). She said it would probably be very clear in another few days. I’ve shown my closest friends my photos just to share, they don’t know about nub theory and one of them said “I don’t know why but I immediately thought ‘Beautiful girl’” and the other said she keeps getting glimpses of me having another girl. Posted my pics to a couple of gender ultrasound forums and have gotten both boy and girl guesses. I know this is completely stupid of me but I feel like the slight hope I came away with yesterday after the ultrasound has been dashed. Then I start to feel like a fool for even trying for another boy and that I don’t deserve another son anyway. I know that regardless I will love this baby with all of my heart but I’m just feeling really low right now. Three of my coworkers are pregnant two with boys and one with a girl. I’m wondering if I missed a “boy season” and will end up with a girl by default. Again, I know this is silly and I wish with all my might I didn’t feel like this but it’s just where I am at for the moment. Thanks for listening. Any thoughts or words of encouragement are welcome.