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Bio:

Mom to 5 amazing, wonderful, fantastic boys!

Currently living in California and loathing it. Missing the country, the quiet, the acreage! 

We're TTC again--for the last time--and we'd both REALLY love to have a girl! We [sorta recently] started swaying via diets and old wives tales, but having found this place and the Extreme Gender Swaying section, we're going to go all out--and have fun doing it! [;)]

We are detailing [as much as possible, at least] our TTC efforts in our blog [http://tryingforchaos.wordpress.com/]. Since we're going to start again mid-June [since we missed May [U]], right now it's pretty much just notes and random ramblings [:S] but that should change, soon! 

In the end, if it doesn't work and we're blessed with another boy, that's Ok, too--we'll know we tried but that it wasn't meant to be. We'll love a little boy as much as we'd love a little girl [hearts]

 UPDATE: TTC has been temporarily suspended due to a family emergency. We hope that this passes swiftly (and well) and, as soon as it does, we will be renewing our efforts as soon as possible. We are praying for the best possible outcome for our family. Thank you, all, for all of your help--I will still be here every day, posting and reading, as we will take back up right where we left off as soon as we can!

UPDATE #2: AF showed up this morning (*cry*) and our emergency is pretty much out of  the way-so as soon as AF is gone, we're going to TTC again! At this point, we've decided to go with daily SU/TBM attempts between June 28th and July 3rd because getting pregnant is at this stage more important. Hoping that this will result in a BFP for my birthday present! So while O+12,16 & 20 is out the door (because neither one of us feel quite comfortable with that at this stage...), hopefully the daily SU/TBM will help where our timing won't.

UPDATE #3: No more EGS We have decided that EGS isn't going to give us our desired results, after all--and we're not really willing to take the chance, so to speak. So we've decided on High Tech within the next 6 months. Hoping for a girl or boy/girl twins (if that's even possible! It would be perfect, though--so we're going to hope!) and going in January 2011 or sooner, if possible!

UPDATE #4: Ok, enough wavering!!! We actually decided that we'd do EGS 2 more times before we gave up--HOWEVER if this month produces a BFN, then we're going to be doing IVF/PGD November 2010!!!

UPDATE #5: FRUSTRATING!!! AF hasn't shown up--and I am still getting nothing but BFNs [:'(] I'd like to get af (so we can start on IVF/PGD ASAP) or get a BFP so I can know to hold off on those plans (because all swaying be damned, you KNOW I'd have another boy!) until 2012! Just.. SOMETHING!!!

UPDATE #6: BFP!!! Looks like it was a BFP, after all! Praying for pink, but will be happy with boy #6 (always have IVF/PGD 2012 for a girl!) Yay!

UPDATE #7: That was short-lived. Just 48 hours after I got my first BFP, I started spotting. [:'(] It looks like I'm out. I should be happy that this means IVF/PGD is back on... but all I can do is feel broken and crushed. In the 48 hours I knew I was pregnant.. just changed me completely. I don't know.. I'm just miserable, now.

UPDATE #8: Spotting done completely. Haven't had any sort of spotting further than what I first had. Hoping it was just irritation from sex that caused it.. scared to hope, though. Got two more (stronger) BFPs. One digital. Dare I hope....?

UPDATE #9: 

7/16/10 BFP
7/17/10 BFP
7/18/10 Spotting [U] [:'(] I'm out.. and IVF/PGD is back on. Still.. I'm crushed. [U]
7/19/10 Spotting completely over.. and two more BFPs (one digital) Dare I hope...?
7/20/10 Still no spotting.. lines are definitely getting darker. We are so hopeful!!!
7/21/10 Another darker positive and another positive digital--so we're going to take that as a sign this little one is sticking around!!! [HH]

UPDATE #10: 

So.. Ok, yeah--I have decided that I actually WANT to stay an all-boy mom! Who'd have thought?! So.. now I'm actually really hoping that my BOY feelings are accurate! I remembered when my GD started.. and it was when I was CONVINCED that my 5th was a girl. And because I was SO convinced of that, I wanted a girl. Before that--I didn't care. I didn't want boys or girls--I just wanted babies! When he turned out another boy, I can honestly say I was crushed. And from that point, I wanted a girl, no matter what. 

But yeah--I won't ramble--I'm almost back in the healthy place I was, before. I think having a girl is too much for me--so I DO only want boys at this point.Before, I just wanted babies [:P]  So I'm not completely "recovered" yet. And God help me if this does end up being a girl.. I think I'd have to put my GD shoes back on.. and that would be depressing [:(] (I think I'm safe, though--I'm pretty sure I'll hear boy again!) But yeah.. fx we hear it's a boy on the anatomy scan!!!

UPDATE #11:

http://www.in-gender.com/cs/forums/t/191054.aspx  

UPDATE #12:

So we (Ok, I) was freaking out all night (09-28-2010).. we could not find the heartbeat on the doppler and we tried all night. It was awful. After our previous losses, well, we decided that we would get checked out. We got there and had to wait an agonizing 30 minutes until it was our turn. Long story short, everything is fine--there's a beautiful heartbeat, baby was active and looked fantastic.. and is 100% a girl. We are.. completely floored. Happy.. excited (I, personally, am scared to death along with those feelings). My 2nd is going to be so happy.. he's my little GD sufferer (poor guy) but yeah.. everything is great, she (I can't believe I am saying she) is looking wonderful. I guess she was just hiding out last night (seriously we tried ALL night to find it and just couldn't.. I was crushed)

So yeah.. I'm having a girl. It's going to take a bit to get used to... but I will.. and I already love her (geesh, after feeling like we'd lost her for the past 24 hours, it's impossible NOT to hah) just.. need to get used to it.