Thank you so much to both of you.
I am already feeling better....but the downs come and go. I guess what hit me the hardest was that I never actaully thoght that gender would matter. In fact, I was...

Hey everyone

I am new to this forum and I feel miserable right now. It might even be pränatal depression..I dont know. I am getting help soon (seeing a therapist) but I guessed i'll find some...