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[zanacal]

I hope that's ok!

I'm beginning to feel a bit silly for even attempting to conceive a girl and I'm only 5 weeks *sigh*. I feel like we did all we could based on the best information I could find (and even that we did too much because when you read my sway it sounds like one of those 'too perfect' sways executed with precision by a testosterone fuelled boy mum!) but honestly - my DH released more than should be possible for a 37 year old and I lost all that weight and put all that stuff up my whatsit and we still got pregnant first attempt with one BD. I'm not complaining about that because I know how blessed we are (I can't emphasise that enough, we are so lucky and health is honestly my top priority now we have a real bean in there!) but from a lower fertility = girl perspective it doesn't look too hopeful and, as I said, it feels foolish even to have thought that any of those things would work for ME.

I'm excited at the prospect of another baby boy. My sons are adorable and they would be so thrilled with another brother - and of course he'd fit in perfectly. I'm very good at avoiding thinking about things which I don't want to think about, but when I stop and try to come to terms with not ever having a daughter it takes my breath away.

There really isn't any point to this post - no questions needing answers or anything - I'm just offloading. Thank you for somewhere to do it

[TTC5]

I think that feeling is so normal! I sometimes think to myself *who am I kidding?! I can't be as lucky as everyone else* but then quickly try to stay positive and tell myself that I too have just as much CHANCE at having a boy as everyone else more so now because I am swaying the odds as best as I can.

I am sending you lots and lots of pink dust!!!!!

[melissalynay]

I have the same thing....some days I wonder what am I doing I couldn't possibly have a girl, then there are other days I am super positive. wishing you the best and hoping you hear pink soon.

[Flava]

Z- I think exactly the same!!! Especially after the last sway because I did think like this and yes it did not worked for me.
hmmm really wth Im doing again??

[nuthinbutpink]

Well, it can work, it does work. I hope it works out for you. We will all be here to cheer you on!

[swish]

Z, I know you don't want answers but..
Firstly, I think it's really normal to feel anxious after the initial adrenalin rush of the bfp
Secondly, you could have still lowered fertility enough but been lucky enough to catch the egg. My sis conceived her girl after after two boys on a one off attempt first time ttc, it does happen! Xxx
Sending you hugs, x

[begonia]

Hugs Zan!! Fwiw, I was positively hopeless and kind of sad about my bfp at first bc I was SURE it would be girl number 3 for us. But I can honestly say it got sooooo much better as weeks went by, I really think some of it comes from all the hormones! Not saying your feelings aren't real, just saying I hope it get better soon.

Also... I got pg with both my girls (and this one) first shot. One of them was while I was on bcps. And I know 3pnb has also been a highly fertile (1st month try) girl momma with hers too. I would not sweat the first month bfp for even a minute. Very fertile women/men DO make girls!!

Anyhow, ending with more hugs. It's a hard spot but thank goodness this is a place where we can find empathy.

[Indira]

Secondly, you could have still lowered fertility enough but been lucky enough to catch the egg.

this ! At your first attempt you´ve found the right balance at lowering fertility but not too much.
Like you´ve said, with your weight loss and your husbands admirable frequent release..this def. should be a pink bean!

[zanacal]

Thank you everybody. I also feel guilty for even wanting a girl because it feels like I'm saying I don't want the boy who is potentially growing inside me at the moment - I know, I know it's silly!

[shouldihope?]

I totally have been feeling the same way. After having some spotting last night I am feeling like I don't care as much anymore I just want a healthy baby. I sure do feel guilty about it too. I think what we are feeling is normal after this many of the same gender in a row it is hard not to have so much emotion and thought surrounding our baby to be. I saw an acquantance at the park the other day she just had a baby girl after 2 boys and some losses. She said so you thought would go for 4 boys. My husband thinks I am just being sensitive. Maybe I am but I don' ht think so. Hope we have a happy healthy 9 months ahead.