ERPC tomorrow

[EmmyRoo]

I'm due in hospital at 10am, am so scared but this has to end. It's been three weeks now.
Just saw on facebook a friend has announced her sister's pregnancy - I knew already and she's due the same day I was. this is going to be so hard, having constant reminders of the milestones I should be hitting too.
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[atomic sagebrush]

I"m so sorry Emmy - praying everything goes well and thinking of you.

[EmmyRoo]

Thanks atomic, I still can't quite believe this is happening to me, even though it's been three weeks. It's just going to keep hitting me, I just know it will.
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[Kittybear]

So sorry Emmy that you are going through this I really hope that with time your heart will be healed. Will be thinking of you x x

[Wanting-a-girl]

So sorry that will def make it harder as it will be a constant reminder we are all here for you

[EmmyRoo]

Thank you kitty and wanting, it's so hard how you think you're starting to do better then something puts you right back to square one. Makes me feel this will never really go away.
Just need to take a day at a time and start by surviving this surgery tomorrow, I'm so scared, never had a general before, am paranoid I'll die under anaesthetic or something! Haven't even thought how I'll feel emotionally afterwards.
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[Dreamofpink]

GL Emmyroo, you'll be in my thoughts all day. X x

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[Wanting-a-girl]

Hope all is going well for you today! You are in my thoughts!

[EmmyRoo]

Thanks everyone. It went as well as these things can I suppose. It was a long day, they had 5 emergency c-sections so I was bumped and didn't go to theatre till 5pm which didn't help the nerves. Also I started bleeding just after arriving at 10am so the pills they gave me to soften my cervix for the procedure caused it all to kick off and I was cramping and passing huge clots the size of my palm (sorry, TMI) which was really distressing as I'd accepted it wasn't going to happen naturally and had been focussing on getting my head around surgery. The actual procedure was fine, it was weird to wake up with less pain and bleeding than I went to sleep with. Eventually got to leave at 10pm so a long and tiring day.

I got flu almost immediately on getting home so I've been a right state this week, very sorry for myself. I thought I'd feel better about the loss once it was over but I'm still bursting into tears and feeling like I can't accept it. Maybe it's hormones. Thanks for your thoughts.

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[Wanting-a-girl]

Awww Emmy I'm so sorry I hope you can start feeling better soon...