When to just quit.

[SweetLily]

Hi ladies. I've been on the site off and on since its inception, and while I dont post a lot, I have read of your joys and sorrows.

This month marks 5 years of recurrent chemical pregnancies. more than 20 by now, 3 this fall alone.

I am devastated my body just can't do the one thing I want more than anything, to give my husband one more child. He only has one, and he is the dearest, best father in the world. he deserves one more, and I can;t give it to him. I have ben on supplement after supplement, even taking zinc, vit d, b12, b6 just to increase the odds even tho we want a girl, cause NOTHING sticks right now, how can I get a girl if nothing sticks.

I am at the end of my rope. I submitted a form with dr B above, maybe my natural killer cells are killing baby every time, or I have an immunology problem. Its interesting that all this started after the birth of a son with a new partner. My mom always said she thought that was the problem and I was crazy to think otherwise but I had never heard of it and found little in research. Dr B has straightened me out on that!

I feel heartbroken and lost.

[nuthinbutpink]

You need testing! Clearly there is an issue. If you can afford immunity testing, something is going on and your body is attacking embryos.

I'm so sorry. There is likely an answer but you need help.

[mommymachine]

I have no advice. Just wanted to say how sorry I am.

[The Anchor]

SweetLily, I'm so sorry. How heart breaking. Are you on the wait list for a clinic in Canada? You can get all the testing done here...GL and HUGS.

[djmommy]

I am so sorry. I have no advice but offer prayers and hugs!

[XXforhubby]

My heart breaks for you! I hope that you can get answers soon. While my struggles pale in comparison, I know how devastating repeated loss and BFNs can be. I will keep you in my prayers, and I believe that you will have another baby soon! Don't lose hope; sometimes that is all we have! 😘


Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

[SweetLily]

Thank you all of you.

I don't have the $6000+ that the testing costs through Dr B right now. I might in a few months, but I don't now. And since its been over a year since my last visit to the fertility clinic in Calgary, I have to get a referral before they will even TELL me if they offer immunolgy testing! I have a dr appointment on friday anyway, i will get him to do the referral and hopefully I will be able to book an appointment in a couple of weeks--but getting to book and being seen are very different things...it might take a month or two before they can fit me in!

Maybe they will be able to do all the testing I need, and I wont have to shell out 6000 I dont have. Im not getting any younger, I turned 38 in september.

I wish there was just an easy answer. I feel like Im giving up on a life long dream here.

[SweetLily]

SweetLily, I'm so sorry. How heart breaking. Are you on the wait list for a clinic in Canada? You can get all the testing done here...GL and HUGS.

What part of canada are you in? Toronto seems to be very ahead of what anywhere else offers...I just moved across the AB border into BC. Apparently my healthcare will still cover the cost, most specialists we get sent to are in calgary as its our closest major city--2.5 hours as apposed to Vancouver, 9 hours!

[maidentomother]

Oh hun, I can't even imagine, going through so much for so lomg and worse, not knowing why. I'm so sorry, and I hope you get booked intoman appointment lickety-split. I agree totally with NBP that there are options that will likely help or even solve your problem. Fx this year. Please don't give up on your dream!

[atomic sagebrush]

I have no advice, just ((((hugs)))) and hoping Dr. B has some answers.