TTC Girl - January 2012

[Out of the Blue]

Hi all! As usual, I'm waaaaaay behind on this thread... I'm CD13 today but I probably won't O for another 4-5 days (but who knows...???). I never know when I'll O as my cycles are so schizophrenic...It's just a guessing game all the time. DH has been releasing every day for about 5 days and I'll have him keep it up. I may put in a 1/2 app of RepHresh in soon but I won't do the "1/2 app every day" route that I took last time as I think it may have been overkill. Last time we BD like bunnies but this time, we'll just wait for a +OPK and continue to BD through O using Sylk. I will not do a J&D b/c I didn't even do that last time and still a BFN. We'll just give it our best shot this time and really hope it's enough to get us a baby...

This weekend when we were out, we kept seeing little babies EVERYWHERE and DH got teary-eyed and just kept saying how much he wanted a baby NOW and how he really hopes we can have a girl. He said that if we don't get our girl, we can adopt (which I would to do right now but the cost is so steep.). There was a little girl in one of the stores who kept waving and playing "peek-a-boo" w/DH. She was less that 18 mos and we were both just smitten w/her. I think my DH needs a baby just as much as I do…sometimes I think he may need her even more. DS1 also keeps talking about a baby and kind of forgets/doesn't quite understand that there's no longer a baby in my belly. He'll bring me little toys and place them next to my belly saying "This is for the baby..." I can't wait to see DS2 become a big brother and DS1 become a big, BIG brother! Hopefully this kid is on its way very soon...

My parents bought plane tickets to come visit next March/April and I'm kind of not looking forward to it b/c that's when I was set to deliver, that's my B-day and also the B-day of one of our greyhounds who died last year by accident (DH left him outside too long and he died in my arms of heat stroke). Seeing my parents again isn't something I'm looking forward to either b/c it was on a visit to see them that I m/c my girl. My Mom didn't even want us to TTC another and she kept saying we'd just have a boy (probably to dissuade us from trying). They mean well but they kind of just stress me out and make me sad. I don’t want to be still TTC then as I’ll probably be in a fragile/melancholy state even if I get a BFP before then but if I’m still swaying, that’ll be just terrible.

Sorry for the rant…Just having a hard time after my parents said they plan to visit during the time I just want to hide from everyone and grieve privately w/DH. I miss my angels and long to be preg again and with a healthy baby this time. I know we all long to be preg and want our dream to come true ASAP. My wish is for all of us to get speedy BFPs followed by news that it’s a healthy GIRL…

[XXdreaming]

So how long does it take for your hcg to drop and hormones go to normal? I am so ready for this nausea to go away, I am getting a little better everyday but still pretty yucky and not really feeling like eating, the m/c before this one I never got sick and I don't remember how long the others took

[auroara78]

Sorry to hear about your loss (and other losses), XXdreaming....

Jen, I really think this cycle is going to be it! You're going to do a brilliant sway and end up preggers with a beautiful little girl that your two sons will love & protect!!

[littlemissnaughty7]

OOTH i just read your post and filled up with tears, i hope you get your little girl soon, but your angel babies are always there with you that will never die, and i hope your parents somehow change there minds about comin next march/april, x

[xokatietatie]

Katie, hope you get an OPK soon, maybe later this week? What is your sway plan...do you have a rough draft of a plan or a pretty set in stone plan?

We're just going to DTD one time as soon as I get a +OPK. I've been trying to follow the diet, drink crystal light like it's my job, taking rephresh every 3 days, baby aspirin every other day, and I am going to take zyrtek around O day plus maybe do a jump and dump.

[xokatietatie]

OOTB, your post got to me as well. Thanks for being so open and honest. I struggle with my parents as well and the things my mother has said to try to convince me not to have another child. I'm praying for you to get your girl.

[purple sky]

OOTB I too hope your parents decide they can't make it up to visit. Hopefully you get a BFP before then.

[purple sky]

OMG so my monitor says I should O in the next 3-4 days I don't know what to do. I wasn't expecting to O for another 10 days or so. I wonder if it's wrong? I totally blew the diet over the holidays.

[rainbowflower]

So how long does it take for your hcg to drop and hormones go to normal? I am so ready for this nausea to go away, I am getting a little better everyday but still pretty yucky and not really feeling like eating, the m/c before this one I never got sick and I don't remember how long the others took

it depends when you pass the hormone-producing cells... it can be a couple of weeks. Make sure you get a BFN before TTC again.

[rainbowflower]

ootb: you do seem to get a slight pre-OV dip in a couple of cycles... really hope you catch that egg this cycle!! you deserve it so much.
oh, I'm sorry that will be a difficult time of year for you when your parents visit and (seemingly) increase your stress levels - was it 2011 it happened to you? hope you have a rainbow baby on the way by then and can survive the dates. It does get easier even if that's hard to imagine right now.