my rant! having one of those days lol

[XXdreaming]

I have no clue why I have 4 boys! I dont have high testerone(maybe when it comes to swaying lol it just pisses me off I cant succeed), I am the complete opposite in real life though on other things, the LE diet is simple to me because really the only thing I had to change was just knock some things I eat off and lower my calories and stop excercising(I have never liked red meat and just eat chicken), I have done it all and I still have boys, and I plan on doing it one more time but I am not very hopeful right now in it working because it didnt work before, I just wish I could find something that might be the key, like oh that sounds like me, maybe thats why I have 4 boys, but the more I read the more I am confused because it points that I should have more girls! and really love my boys and just want one single girl i mean is that to much to ask? and yet I do all this swaying only to m/c and have to start over!! there I feel better lol sorry just shake your head and pass me by

[applesoup]

I'm so sorry for your frustrations. For your disappointments. For your confusion. For your losses.

I am so frustrated with my own situation: 3 boys...find out in 1 week that it's (probably) #4...I feel like a statistical anomaly. And even still, I know that you must be hurting more than me.

I was told by a few people in my life, that God only gives all boys to very special mothers. I rolled my eyes & thought to myself, "can't He at least bless me with ONE girl??" or "can't He at least give me twins...1 boy AND a girl??" I realize now that my reaction(s) were/are selfish and blinded, but that those people had a point.

It's my prayer that we'll all have peace on this topic...girl or not.

[XXdreaming]

Thanks apple, I hope you have a healthy baby girl in there

Well todays another day....a better day, its either this or ivf and until money grows on trees it this, so I am just gonna try harder and dig deeper and maybe just maybe it might work this time, if not well then I will just have to live with that

[auroara78]

Ahh, sorry to hear this, hunny, I know we all have down in the dumps days...hopefully you're next sway will kick major butt, may I ask, besides diet, what else you have done? FR or abstain? New moon? Any of those things?

it will get better, hopefully very soon!

[XXdreaming]

(Some might be tmi)Well we done fr(always have since dh is a morning releaser lol) I haven't done the new moon because it really doesn't make sense to me how it can help, we have tried douches and lime tampons which failed so this time I am doing rephresh every 3 days, taking max dose of vitex, and was cranberry but doesn't help with subchoironic hemorrhaging so I had to cut that out and I believe sp was a no now because of this too, 1600 folic acid and I know vit E is for blue but was thinking about adding this because of my m/c, we have tried cutoffs(3 to 4 day cutoffs) and also O+12 which I thought I succeeded on that twice but both ended in m/c so who knows, so this time we will bd through O(start about 3 days before O and everyday to O, since he releases everyday anyway), we bd in shower or I had him release right at opening, we will probably stick with this, I have appt tomorrow to ask ob about cranberry and aspirin and see what he says since these might be making subchorionic hemorrhaging worse which I have had with all my pregnancy which the the ones I carried full term wasn't an isssue no bleeding cramping etc, dh thinks swaying is stupid and you get what God gives you no matter what so he won't help, he has compromised on the shower sex(yeah I am sure that's punishing for him lol) and also on a hand job with him releasing at my opening, we don't need lube in shower and we do use astroglide on hand job(since I couldn't find sylk but got some ordered now) but since its not actually going in me I figured it wouldn't hurt but to be on safe side I will use girl friendly lube, I think that's it lol need to fill out one of those swaying forms to make sure I don't forget anything lol I m/c at beginning of jan and figured I would wait until april for my attempt to make sure I been on LE diet long enough(even though that's longer then the 6wk requirement lol) and my herbs to be working lol and make it a jan baby since I already have oct,oct,nov,dec babies lol

Oh forgot about zyrtec around O too, and still seems like I am forgeting something lol

[XXdreaming]

We do protect on the days up to 3 days before O when we do our attempt, but was thinking if vcfilms will mess with my rephresh or since we stop protecting 3 days out from O it really doesn't matter? Since its rephresh 3 days before O and no vcfilms anymore so its not like I am mixing them during our attempt, but they do get mixed before then but not during our actually attempt