Uk SMOG Wannabes ~ January

[maybebabythree]

Ah babymad - kind of know how you feel but not exactly as you had your girl at one point. Must make it harder for you, i cant imagine that pain. I don't like to think about it but it still hurts for me to. I hate to say that as I feel it belittles dave and he deserves so much more than to be my gd baby. He is worth so much more than that. Feel like I have crawled over broken glass on my bear hands and knees to get him. I do feel like we are a complete family now. Maybe if I was millionaire and younger I would do ivf but I am getting past the dd thing ( but yes it's hard - I could easily cry out why not me? Why it's not fair!) but I find it better to ignore that and think of what do I have. Besides this maybe your girl! It's not over till it's over! I could well be the only smog carrying a boy! There are so many dreams I have that can't come true. A girl is just one of them. I just feel blessed to be pg one more time. Something I didn't think I would be able to do again.

Felt I'll today. Swelling up like a hot air balloon, feel sick, pain in my cervix, can't walk hardly ( much to everyones amusement!) seeing stars. Feels like pe but without the high bp or protein. Not sure I will escape it this time but if I don't I just want it to come now so I can get it over with. It's the not knowing and waiting I hate.

[maybebabythree]

Ah Charlie your bump is lovely! Mine is rock hard but unbelievably still flabby underneath!!!! How I don't know! Nature is mocking me with a bump so rock hard yet still not taking up the slack of my pre pg flab! Grrghh! It will be by knees keeping my pelvic floor company soon enough!

Inglewood so glad your scan went well x

[Kell]

I barely have a bump it's annoying lol
But we did manage to find the baby with my Doppler last night! I let dp find it, at first he was wowing at my heartbeat pmsl! Then I say keep looking it'll be much faster than that! So he did and we found it!
Ds2 had a listen as well which was cute! I can't wait to let ds1 hear it! He was at his dad's last night!

[Lavenderlime]

Morning all,

kell amazing news hearing the little heartbeat!

Charlie what a great bump don't think I ever had such a lovely little bump at 16 weeks!

I had more spotting well actually it was tinged pink cm yesterday when I wiped and and when I went to the loo again it was clear cm so thought I was imagining things. Then it was a browny/grey CM, then back to pink and now clear this a.m but felt wet this a.m so thought I started bleeding again but just CM sorry TMI. This is the oddest cycle i've ever had!

I went to bed last night at 5pm until-8pm when dp when dp went food shopping. And I caught up on some telly, then watched the gypsy blood programme on 4 I wished I hadn't it made me feel really sick (all the blood, killing rabbits, chickens, bambi) and so sad for those boys. Don't like to judge people from an edited documetary but it's really hard not to.

[pinga]

inglewood - great pictures!

Charlie - I can't believe how great you look and this is your 4th!! My bump is sooo much bigger - mostly due to weak posture muscles - if that makes sense! I look about 10 weeks further along than I am :P

Sunset - not really nervous about my scan. I am pretty confident we'll hear boy. I have shed a few tears late at night... but I try not to think about it.

A sad day for me. Today it is 10 years since I lost my Mum! Can't believe I've been without her for that long...

We're off tomorrow so I'll catch up with you all in about a week...

[Petal]

Hi all,

Aww inglewood, those little girls are soo cute! and i just love the names! Ruby was on my list too :-) sounds like you had a perfect day out too x

Maybe, i know what you mean about the guilt and that our boys deserve so much more than to be gd babies, i try not to think of the times i felt really down due to him being a boy, it turns my stomach just to think of how i felt at my 16 week scan compared to the way i feel about him now. He is such a joy to have! when people ask me if im gonna have a 4th and try for a girl (which really pisses me off) i reply that if i could have ds3's twin then i would have him tomorrow! (which shuts them up pretty sharpish) as hes so good! hes a good sleeper, good eater, a true smiler and most importantly he makes us all smile, the older boys adore him and when they talk to him he really giggles at them which just melts my heart :-)) I truley believe he was sent to me for a reason and i couldnt be happier.

Babymad.. i totally understand how you feel, and all i can say is time is a great healer :-) For me, i think i made the right choice to find out the sex and im glad i done it alone so i could get over it by myself without worrying DH, i had 4 weeks to 'mourn a dd' and by 20 weeks it wasnt so hard. We are all here for you as you all were for me :-)

Sunset, ur pics are lovely, and ur fb comment made me giggle about you in ur size 6 jeans lol, think one of my legs alone is a size 6 haha.

Love to you all x x x

[Petal]

Oh Pinga, a sad day for you, im sure your mum is very proud of you! x

[Babymad]

I had a gender scan this morning and it's a boy which was no shock after seeing his willy at he 20 wk scan. Not telling anyone including DH that I know. At least I can give the pink outfit away that I kept under my bed whilst ttc and it won't be here when he arrives.
Thanks for all your kinds words xxx

[charlieispy]

Babymad - sending you some HUGE love right now x I hope you are ok x I dont really know what to write but he will be beautiful just like your other boys, and i truelly feel i will join you with 4 boys....and when i do can we please get that shared room for them all! THey will only need footballs Will you tell DH before the birth or keep it to yourself x I got rid of everything pink once I knew ds3 was a boy it was hard but helped me x much love hun x

Petal - your post made me cry I could have written that myself ds3 i think i am closer to in some ways due to my GD the thought of not wanting him after my scan and looking at him now.....sitting next to me shredding toilet paper (just so i can send some emails!!) he is my dreamiest boy yet....so loving kisses everyone i think because i constantly kiss him lol! If i have 4 boys it was fate and i wasnt meant to have girls.....like DH says they will only hate you when they get older :P

Pinga - huge hugs hun what a hard day for you x cant imagine being without your mum for so long x give those boys some bigs hugs and think how proud she must be of you as she watches over you x x

lavender - ooooh your cycle is squiffy hope it sorts itself out - your never know could be O bleeding and then implantation bleeding x #FX

deaks - FX FX FX for your attempt come on BFP

Kell - YAY for finding the heartbeat and ds listening ds1 loves the doppler!!! Am sure your bump will pop out soon x i feel huge :S

waves to everyone else must go indy is now trying to write in ds1 homework book AArrggghhhhh

off to a spa tomorrow though so got to find a cossie and shave :S not looking forward to getting my plump out x

[pinga]

Just popped on before going to bed...

Oh Babymad - HUGE hugs!!! I hope you are doing ok.... I know there is nothing really that I can say... I always think of my brother when I feel particularly sad. He was soooo close to my Mum and he always got around her with a hug and some sweet-talking. He always had time out to see her! So we can and WILL have close and special relationships with our boys!!
Take care, hon.