If you need me, I'll be under my rock

[Bumblebee]

oh hun so sorry to hear you're going through this, it must be really hard for you, I hope everything goes well and you get some closure xxx

[tinksmagic]

Well, here we are, week 11 and nothing. Physically I'm doing fine, with the exception of the occasional cramps. Nothing productive though. I am meeting this week with Women and Infants in Rhodey to discuss a d&c only for the reasons that a) I want to test the tissue to try to determine what went wrong and b) I really need to get on with my life and learn how to have a better cycle.

I used to say I never saw my last miscarriage coming (and I didn't) and that this would be "the cycle" where I'd get my healthy twin boys, but wow, was I wrong! I never saw this happening either!!!

I now know after getting my records that my "bleed" was actually a subchorionic hematoma and from what I'm reading up on them, they can be the cause for up to 50% of miscarriages. Why no one told me this, is ticking me off!

I spoke last week with a genetic counselor at W&I and I got a much better vibe talking to her than MG. I will have my consultations with both and make the decision next month on who to go with. My OB uses W&I and I'm leaning now more towards them just after my conversation. I am allowing myself and hubby no less than 120 days to improve ourselves for a better cycle. I'm reading up on everything that *may help. My OB insists there's no concrete findings in all the fertility supplements out there, but I am having a hard time not accepting there's some truth to them after the women I've been talking to that have taken supplements and have gone on to have healthy babies.

Mentally, I still have my lost moments, but I'm getting better about it. I think I will feel so much better once I have my
closure on this cycle.

[lisvna]

Hugs!

[auroara78]

Tinks, thanks for the update, sorry about all of this

I hope you can get a boy or even twin boys again very soon...I think it's good that you are looking forward in a proactive manner!

[tinksmagic]

I'm really starting to feel like the butt of a cruel joke. I go next week for a d&c and hopefully get to the bottom of this. The sick part is, I now look 3 months pregnant with twins and my youngest keeps talking to my tummy like her baby brothers are in there (we never told her, she just sees how big I am). I have to wear baggy clothes (and it's been in the 70's and 80's here ~ freak NE weather!) so I don't have to answer the question I wanted to joyously answer.
I have calls in to my ENT dr to get a starting point with my thyroid. I've been to a few health food places getting more info on supplements to start taking to try a healthy cycle and I've 75% changed my eating habits and working on hubby's. The good thing is, is he's totally on board with everything to getting healthier (he's been trying for a year now, this is a kick in the butt for him) and cycling again in a few months.

[choulu]

...in my eyes, unacceptable behavior and lack of both compassion and knowledge is no excuse. ...And in the event we have to do another cycle, it WILL NOT be with them! I've never been so neglected by any doctor (or lack of!) at any practice.

You are a strong woman Tinks. I admire your courage and persistence!

I had the same (bad) experience with HRC (Dr. F and her nurse) today. The nurse cannot tell the difference between two procedures, wrote my name wrong, said the name of the medicine wrong, and the doctor was totally unresponsive!

If you live in MA, can you receive insurance that will cover you for up to 6 cycles?

[tinksmagic]

Well, it's officially over for me this cycle. I had my d & c Thursday and am on bed rest due to hemorrhaging. The pain has been unreal, this haas been the pregnancy from Hell! What started out so well ended horribly. Best I can hope now is that they can grab enough dna to determine what went wrong.
I am reading up on all supplements and foods to take that may improve eggs, please let me know any advice and successes!
Everyone has been great here, thank you for your support, it really means a lot.
90 to 150 days to improve seems like a lifetime to wait now.
Good luck to everyone and healthy babies!
We meet in 3 weeks with the hospital here to start fresh, that will make the time go by quicker! Lots of tests in our future. No more clinics fir us, experts only!

[fresas]

I am so sorry again. I hope you get the answers you are looking for.

I also hope you will have a successful H & H pregnancy with experts on your case.

[auroara78]

I'm sorry again, and I'm glad we can be a source of support for you

You are great to have around, please stay in touch with us through your journey to have baby boys

[tinksmagic]

Well, it's been 2 weeks and hopefully today I will have the dna test results I am hoping for!
I am jumping over to the swaying forums for a bit, I've drastically changed everything in mine and hubby's lives and so far, it's been working out well for us.
NOT GIVING UP!!!! I am hoping for another cycle in September or October depending on how things go with us and the genetic doctors.
Hope everyone is doing well, and again, thank you to everyone!!!
We'll get there!!!!