TTC Girl - March 2012

[amari]

Hope-Exactly, summer is time to grill and eat all those great melons and berries! I hope we get our bfp's by then!

Mygirl-Thanks for posting that! That's what I remember about the preseed, boys and girl babies being about the same, makes me feel a little better about using it!

[prayforprincess]

Thanks all. I am gonna wait til 12dpo/Wedn. to test again. I just can't see all the bfn's. I have 4 more FRER left and a bunch of internet 10mlU cheapies. I wil test 12, 13, & 14 dpo. If by Friday they are not bfp, then I am pretty much out of the game.
I really hope.
Oh, and H&D, I know I complained about some cheats here and there that were not really cheats -- but when I say I have been cheating in this 2ww I have! Eating meat, not counting calorie (and i know that I am going over 1200 -- even 1800 maybe on a few days). About the only thing I have stuck to is not eating til 12pm. If I am not pg then I will need to go on the diet HARD CORE from af-o (minus Easter dinner of course). I am going to be good this week tho. I only plan to cheat on Monday night cause I have to make a dinner for a lot of friends, but other than that -- only 2 meals a day and staying 1200 or under other than that one meal til next weekend when I find out for sure if I am pg.
What else can I do? Needless to say, I am soooooo tired of this.
My dh told me this am that if I am not pg then that is it, we are done and not having another baby. I am like "ya right, I am the one in control of that." He is just sooooo sick of all this too tho. It needs to be over already.

[amari]

pfp-I know the 2ww is so hard. I ended up upping my cals a bit and so far its made no difference weight wise. My dh is the same way, he is so sick of me being on this diet and this being the only thing I think/talk about! Hope this is it for you!

[dramabird]

I want to enjoy the summer, grill out, eat ice cream etc.

For what it's worth, amari, I've been eating an ice cream cone almost every day. In most cases, a half cup serving is only 150 calories and is pretty low in sodium (I've seen 25mg-70mg, depending on the flavor) and the cone is like 20 cals and 25mg sodium. I haven't food journaled in a week or so, but I probably added ice cream into my diet three or four weeks ago, so I know I was staying under my fat, protein and calcium limits.

I had to go out with family today, so we ate at Wendy's ... I had a garden side salad with fat-free French (no croutons) a baked potato with chives and butter spread (no sour cream), a Diet Coke and a value-sized Frosty ... I've looked up those values in the past so I knew it was a relatively acceptable meal for fast food, keeping sodium at least within reason, if not ideal.

Tonight's dinner was steamed broccoli and cauliflower, a huge plate of raw mushrooms with 1 Tbsp. ranch dressing, an apple with no skin, a serving of Trader Joe's naan flatbread (delicious!) with 1 Tbsp. of horseradish hummus, and six miniature pastries from Costco -- plus a couple of glasses of Crystal Light. I feel stuffed and guilty (I don't dare add up the values cuz I'm trying to avoid the stress of feeling down in the dumps) but I keep trying to remember that A) a big portion of what is making me feel so full at the moment is fruit and veggies and CL, which are low-cal, and B) I have to have some calories and fat if I don't want to drop below 96 freakin' pounds!

Aaaaaaand I'll probably have an ice cream cone while watching TV with DH in just a bit.

[dramabird]

please try and hold of testing till you are about 13-14dpo, dont give yourself ammo to disappoint yourself with - but yes i know, easier said then done)

with this totally. Here's what I figure -- a bfn before 14dpo still doesn't necessarily mean you're not pg, so it doesn't keep you from getting your hopes up (but the bfn does make you feel bummed). And a bfp too early would just add worries about the possibility of a chemical (think about how much the implantation bleeding from last cycle drove you crazy). I think the Fertility Friend website said the average positive pregnancy test comes on CD13.6 or something like that.

For me, I like having a specific time where I will take one test and one test only and know that it's pretty much a "yay" or a "nay" at that point.

But of course, you have to do what's right for you. If you were the only one with the compulsion to take multiple tests, they wouldn't have coined the term "POAS addict."

[dramabird]

I ended up upping my cals a bit and so far its made no difference weight wise.

But at least that means you didn't go down in weight. As tiny as you are right now, that alone has to be swaying pink (vs. a need for an ongoing loss, if that makes sense). Forgive me if you've said in the past, but a few questions: how tall are you, what is your bmi and what was your starting weight on this diet? Did your current issues with non-ovulation start with the weight loss or does it pre-date the diet?

I'm thinking "eggie" thoughts for you!!

[dramabird]

Needless to say, I am soooooo tired of this.

Me, too. C'mere, gimme a hug.

Kraizy, I think we could use some more of your awesome prayer work up in here. Though we walk through the valley of the 2ww, we shall fear no bfn.

[amari]

drama-I do ice cream and frozen yogurt a lot too! That day doesn't look so bad to me! I was actually craving a Frosty yesterday. I've stayed within my limits too, except sodium which I never seem to, but when I think about it it doesn't seem that way; the stuff that adds up that seems to be so bad; rice krispie treat, full sugar pepsi, tj's cat cookies with cool whip, mike n ikes, 100 cal pack hostess coffee cake, spoonful of frosting But when you pair it up with the iceberg lettuce and peeled zucchini and mini bagel etc it just doesn't add up. And you are small too, and so like you said, you have to make sure you have enough weight on you to conceive. I am 5' 4" so BMI with the calculator I just used is 16.1-16.3. I was about 102-103 when I started this, and a lot more muscular b/c I worked out, ran and lifted weights. I stopped getting regular periods and ovulating about 9 months ago, not sure why.

How about you? How much have you lost? Are you worried about not o'ing? That is why I tend to add a lot of sweets to my meals, even though I am on clomid and doing the LE, I don't want my body to think I shouldn't even conceive. So even at night if I am not hungry I make sure to get the calories in with a bunch of desserts. Hope this helps.

[KraizyDaizy]

Praying the Lord watches over all of your wombs and that He places the perfect ray of sunshine, a daughter, into our worlds of blue. Amen

[dramabird]

How about you? How much have you lost? Are you worried about not o'ing?

I'm 5 feet, 2.5 inches and weighed in at 96 lbs. the other day, so that puts my bmi around 17.3. I started the diet at 107 lbs. (in general, I usually weigh around 103 or 104, I'd say ... for a few months before starting the diet, I tried to do some extra indulging to give myself a little bit more to lose), so I've lost a bit more than 10 pounds.

I've been off the pill and charting for the past six months (although this was only our second month TTC) and I've ovulated each time. But I haven't been this low a weight since college so I just want to make sure I don't scoot myself into a territory of being anovulatory. DH would be absolutely fine with either a boy or a girl (frankly, he'd also be pretty fine with us stopping at the two kids we already have ) and he's putting up with all of this just for me ... but if he thinks I'm putting my health at jeopardy, he would lose patience really quickly. So I think at this point it's important for me to stay around 96 to 98 lbs. ... that seems like it's still a low enough overall weight to be pink-friendly, without going too low and risking not ovulation (or marital discord ). So I'm trying to make sure I'm eating lots of veggies, lots of fruit, lots of carbs and lots of sweets.

I am pretty proud to have been able to bust out my skinny jeans again, though! lol