TTC Blue Crew Grads

[auroara78]

begonia, I hear you about how you're not sure if coming here is good/bad for you, but I would be sooo sad if you leave. You are great fun to have around and your words always resonate with me.

[Flava]

Im fat so you can't really tell nothing. But in 4 more weeks ...I just think i will be to big even if I don't look pregnant ppl will ask why, you know...

[Hobbermittens]

Begonia, I know how you feel too. Coming on here is hard for me sometimes too. I am so happy when others get their dream come true, but it stings a little. I am so certain this baby is a girl, that I know I will be in the same position you are when it is born. I know I will love the baby no matter what, but this is the last one, and no more trying for a brother for my DS. It just breaks my heart. Plus, DH has been really stressed by the kids lately, and I am wondering if bringing another into the family was really all that great an idea... and if we have another girl... well, I wonder if it would be worth all of this, you know? That sounds awful, and I know the baby will be loved. But I just worry that my DH will not be able to handle our family being one person bigger. It is a stress for me too, but if it were a boy, I think I would be happier about the whole thing....

[Flava]

I feel the same not to log on some days...I think I only do because Im home and it's boring ? Also like to see what's going on with others I guess...maybe less and less...Somehow looks like the ttc blue girls get pregnant and stop logging in or barely do and the ttc pink girls are always on.
I also don't feel fit in anymore somehow...the ttc group was always fun , but now it's like 3 blue girls left?

[begonia]

Thank you Auroara

Hobbs I really hope you're expecting DS2. Thanks for empathizing; I know you get it and I appreciate that ... I think that's why I do have a hard time NOT coming here. At least here we can all talk about it. I do have a friend IRL who I talk about my GD with because she's got it too ... every time we hear about another friend getting pregnant we have chats about what we hope she has and why, LOL.

Flava I agree the pink ladies seem to stick around and be chattier! I get the not fitting in thing too. I felt that way a LOT once I found out it was DD3. It's really tough when you get an opposite because most people who do stop posting. The TTC thread was fun because there's so much hope involved there ... hope for BFP's, hope for getting the dream ... but then once you get a BFP and an opposite the hope and the goal is gone and it's hard to figure out where to go. That's why I don't post on the TTC thread, that's actually the hardest one for me to be on because it reminds me of how much I was looking forward to having a DS.

That said DD3 is my easiest baby, thank goodness

[cemas]

Hi girls,
its been really long since i have been here......you are so right B.....once ur hear pregnant with the opposite.....its so depressing. i keep having mood swings....like i love this new baby and am excited but wonder what if it was a DS....
you know i am still clinging to the hope that it might change...lol.....but whatever at this point am at peace with both.i am trying to avoid being here much and continue my peace....

[LolaInLove]

Hey mamas, I just wanted to say hi and give big virtual love to Cemas.....hope you are doing well. Miss you.

Begonia, I totally kwym about the ttc forum being hopeful and reminding you of that time in your journey here. For some reason, it kind of has the opposite effect for me- it's sort of good for me to feel like I'm in that space, even if I know I won't be logging on with bfp news anytime soon. I feel like if I relegated myself to an infertility site only, that would be the mentality that would start to consume me.

And Hobbs, don't you start getting GD for nothing!!! You are team green, right? Try not to think about it. What if you have a boy and you spent all this time feeling bad?

Anyway, I just wanted to pop in and say hi!

[girlmom]

girl mom is stuck at 5cm and 100% effaced. shes miserable and pumped so full of medications she can't see straight anymore but the babys head is sitting on top of what is left if the 5cm cervix and she's in alot of pain. but they won't let her deliver yet!

[Hobbermittens]

Almost 31 weeks girlmom! You are doing great!!

[Hobbermittens]

And Hobbs, don't you start getting GD for nothing!!! You are team green, right? Try not to think about it. What if you have a boy and you spent all this time feeling bad?

I know I would regret not enjoying the pregnancy more... but honestly, I would love to be that person--to be able to say: "I really regret not enjoying my pregnancy, and obsessing about having another DD, when I actually was carrying DS2!" To have that happen would be awesome. That is a regret I wouldn't mind having at all!!