My VITEX Journey

[Butterfly Spirit]

I took another OPK with SMU and the left line is darker than the right...AGAIN.. weird, another surge!?
What the hell is going on! And I've been sleeping and sleeping and STILL tired

[Butterfly Spirit]

Thank you so much! I think I am Oing right now because I over ate yesterday (depressed & it was lasagna which mother in law made so I love it too much) and I woke up at 7 because I was starving!! I never in my life felt this hungry! I woke up because of hunger pains..weird!
Hubby and I are now both jobless and I can't have so much pressure on him so I too want and need a job and throwing a baby into the equation scares me but he's not scared at all. He's actually a little upset that I'm pull back from it but I just think we need to focus on ourselves first. It's confusing because I want a baby so bad but I have to realize we both have goals as well. I just fear trying and trying and seeing AF or BFN because god says no because we need to get stable jobs now u know what I mean? I told him god is saying no because we are too stressed as it is and a baby will add more stress
Maybe May is my month maybe not but..sometimes I get the feeling that it will be and it would brighten these cloudy days but then I say no because it's not meant to happen yet

Are you temping, and did your temp go up yet! How Exciting you think you Oed!
I hope that you do, just pray about your situation and put it in God's hands. Pray that your hubby can find a stable job. I will have you guys in my prayers too. The Lord always provides a way somehow. I firmly believe it!

[atomic sagebrush]

Our boys are A LOT of work and have TONS of energy! hahaha "Too much work" will be his response to anyone who asks. He likes to choose the moments that our kids are screaming and crying and being difficult and then says "I'm done having kids." "I don't want anymore kids with you" etc. It's heartbreaking to hear, I just try to tune out now. I have made it clear that nothing will talk me out of wanting a daughter. And I won last time, so I know I will do it again. I got a BD in on Saturday and Sun, so that does make me happy. I just need to relax and forget about O, but all the pain and pressure doesn't make it easy. I am feeling tons better though, and I'm trying not to test so much now the surge is there.

(((Hugs)))Butterfly, that is how my husband is too. He just told me yesterday, "I don't think you can handle 3"...while he sat on his butt while I cooked dinner, did the dishes, fed both kids and entertained them, while dying my hair (at his request) with severe anemia and 7 months pregnant LOL. Just go to work and shush "honey".

[atomic sagebrush]

I took another OPK with SMU and the left line is darker than the right...AGAIN.. weird, another surge!?
What the hell is going on! And I've been sleeping and sleeping and STILL tired

I don't know but I hope it works out soon. Did they check your iron??

[Babyy Love]

Are you temping, and did your temp go up yet! How Exciting you think you Oed!
I hope that you do, just pray about your situation and put it in God's hands. Pray that your hubby can find a stable job. I will have you guys in my prayers too. The Lord always provides a way somehow. I firmly believe it!

Nope no temping..I stopped all of that and rely on my siggy (when I get AF & when I'm supposed to O), O pains, O signs, & my constant honeymoon phase BD lol. Thank you! I pray every night for these things to be lifted off of us but one prayer at a time. Maybe they'll be answered in order maybe I'll be blessed all at once but either way my prayers will be answered.
I mean who am I kidding I'm still hoping that May is our month I'm just losing my hope for it

[TTC5]

Have heard some people surge but dont O and get a second surge and O then.

Oh Atomic that sounds awful

[Butterfly Spirit]

(((Hugs)))Butterfly, that is how my husband is too. He just told me yesterday, "I don't think you can handle 3"...while he sat on his butt while I cooked dinner, did the dishes, fed both kids and entertained them, while dying my hair (at his request) with severe anemia and 7 months pregnant LOL. Just go to work and shush "honey".

How horrible! hugz.gif
I remember that you told me that your DH wouldn't help you sway much, and now I get it.
Here you are extremely far along and he's being a jerk and is in denial about all you do. Oh my heart goes out to you too! Oh your sweet daughter is so WELL deserved!!!

[Butterfly Spirit]

I don't know but I hope it works out soon. Did they check your iron??

Well I crashed this afternoon and slept several hours. I couldn't help it. I'm REALLY gassy and I'm just feeling pressure. My OPK upon waking was positive but that urine was in there all afternoon. I was pretty dry when I went pee.. so here's hoping! It will happen SOON or it already happened! I'm SO terrified that this is pretty much my last chance.

I don't know if they checked my iron. What can it do?

[Butterfly Spirit]

Nope no temping..I stopped all of that and rely on my siggy (when I get AF & when I'm supposed to O), O pains, O signs, & my constant honeymoon phase BD lol. Thank you! I pray every night for these things to be lifted off of us but one prayer at a time. Maybe they'll be answered in order maybe I'll be blessed all at once but either way my prayers will be answered.
I mean who am I kidding I'm still hoping that May is our month I'm just losing my hope for it

Aww cheer up my friend! I hope things get better SOON!!!

[Butterfly Spirit]

Atomic I'm so sorry to be annoying about the supplement Qs but this is day 3 of taking just one raspberry leaf capsule, then what do I do tomorrow with it? That one I want to wean off entirely, I'm thinking I don't need it now?