UK SMOG Wannabes May

[zanacal]

Hugs Charlie and Babymad x

Still no baby here (DTD hasn't helped unfortunately!!) but I'm getting lots of braxton hicks today so I hope they may lead to something. I don't usually get them the whole day through! DS1 is on a school trip today and I've been really worried about it so maybe my body will go for it once I've got him home safe and sound

[maybebabythree]

Zanacal poor you, she can't stay put just hang onto that fact!

I have a little tear for your post babymad and Charlie. I think all those things too and more.

With dave I guess I've been lucky in a way as my real turning point in gd terms was sitting in the fertility clinic ready a leaflet on life without children. Then going home and telling dh it looked like we could have no more kids. I don't think I've ever felt more desperate and low. After going so low the only way is up

Had a dream last night I was dying (nice!?) and ds1 was there and I said I loved him more than I have ever loved anyone before. Weird because I woke up and thought surely that would be dh but it did get me thinking. He had a health scare with lumpy nodes this month so maybe dream was due to that.

[indigoviolet]

I'm the same as you to some extent maybebaby as it took so long to get ds2 and being devastated by the miscarriages I do feel so so blessed to have children at all. I think all those things too though and would have loved things to be different but I just try not to think about the future (without a daughter) and make my mind think about other things when I begin to daydream or dwell on what will never be. We won't go to 4 kids so this is it for us but I'm feeling pretty hopeful that, like Deaks said, time will heal and there will be so many wonderful things to enjoy in the future with our wonderful boys.
Love the idea of the name swap too, smob, brilliant! At least that is something we all are and it makes it better to focus on what we do have rather than what we don't.
huge hugs to you ladies though, it is so great we have eachother and somewhere we can be completely honest and feel understood and supported.

[indigoviolet]

Maybe- hope your ds1 is OK, has he been to the docs is all ok? We will have to meet for a coffee again soon

[maybebabythree]

Indigo that would be lovely x yes ds is ok, went to hospital this week who confirmed infected lymph nodes. He has had a massive lump for months I think having a baby makes me paranoid. Finding a lump anywhere freaks me out. Especially when the gp said it had spread.

[pinga]

Charlie and Babymad - huge hugs. Everything you guys said are my fears/feelings. I'm just not dealing with it yet.

I have to focus on my gorgeous children. Had an Ob appointment this morning and when I said I was expecting boy #3, she said "Poor Mummy" to Percy. I didn't feel annoyed by the comment... just a bit sad as I do feel a bit like that!!!

Probably have to have fetal monitoring on Monday :P - so thats the 4 hour session at the hospital with them doing my Blood pressure every hour! boo hoo. Silly BP is up and down all the time. Really don't want to be going to the hospital twice a week now!!!!!

I keep logging on here expecting to see at least ONE baby arrival

[maybebabythree]

Yes pinga - come on babies!

Sorry you have monitoring. When I was in overnight there was woman there who was admitted at 17 weeks with placenta previa and not allowed to leave until her section at 37 weeks! No help to you but imagine that - poor woman

[charlieispy]

COME ON BABIES - not mine just yet though got to get to my best friends wedding on thursday! Although my BH are horrendous and a couple of them today made me think oh shit!

Where are these bubbies x

pinga - hugs for the comment - i told a stranger at legoland i was having another boy and she said oh how lovely.....probably one of the first nice comments I have had! Hugs for monitoring too its sooooooo boring isnt it x hope they dont keep you waiting too long my bubs always move and then lose the trace so i have to stay for ageeeeees either that or sleep and dont move never behave anyway.

Right sending MAJOR labour vibes to all in need of them x indy is currently sitting on my back like the monkey he is demanding dinner.....off i trot then

[nuthinbutpink]

I have created a June thread for you ladies-

http://genderdreaming.com/forum/tryi...tml#post199770