TTC girl- July 2012

[coocoobananas]

I tried throwing a stick into the ocean for my dog and it was so pathetic! I'm too yucky feeling to go work out but man!! All my muscle mass is kaput! So sad better be a girl!!!

[suregena]

Heeh! I feel flabbier than usual, too... yet while losing weight. Must be those empty calories!

Tonight I cooked bok choy to make a cheesy mashed potato and bok choy for my son. I had to cook the whole thing because it needed to be used up. I cooked it in olive oil without thinking because at the time I was cooking for him then decided to add a few bok choy to my dinner... but it was cooked in olive oil! Oh well, one day can't hurt...

[HopeandDreamG]

Prayforprincess- how r u? Haven't seen you posting much. Guessing you are trying not to get too focused on ttc this cycle... Hope your well

[prayforprincess]

Here I am!!

I am so happy to be reading about all you having hard times on the diet. I have been awful!!!!
And I am o-ing today -- I feel so terrible that the diet part of my sway is just out.

We used repHresh every 3 days, took SP, baby aspirin and zyrtec & dh took 2 LR daily. He fr daily. Then we dtd o-5 in the pm(that probably did not live to oday) and in the mornings o-3, o-2 j&d immediately and o-1 j&d immediately. I did not eat for the past 3 weeks til at least noon, sometimes later. I would have to say in the 3 weeks, I was maybe on the LE diet for 14 out of the 21 days. The other 7 days I still skipped breakfast but I did not count my calorie etc. I know for a fact I went over on those day big time. Although I did try to at least eat "girl foods" -- like pasta, rice etc, staying veggie. I did drink way too much alcohol too -- oh well. Oh, and I had seafood 2 of those cheat nights, and a cheeseburger on another one of them (July 4th, I could not help myself).
Unfortunately where I have had most my cheat days are the week leading up to o. And I did not lose a pound. I did at first, and then this week with all the cheating and drinking (oops) it all came back.

I don't know what to think. Watch me get pg this month when I was so bad. I honestly think its 50/50. I think my swaying part was good, but the diet part is what might kill me. But then I think there are millions upon millions of women who conceived dd's not on a diet, so who knows. It's just that with my dh and the probability of us having another ds, if I was not going to be on a diet I would totally do a one time bd with abstaining. That would be our only hope. So, I pray that with a poor girl diet and dtd multiple times leading up to o (although i did lower his count and do j&d immediately) it is enough to sway girl -- hell swaying is not enough I need a girl!

[suregena]

How long had you been on the diet overall? Longer than 21 days or just this general 21 day period? Don't worry about it!

I had a bubble tea today. I haven't had one in years and we were out picking up my fixed macbook (yay!) and I saw the stall in the middle of the mall... and I HAD TO HAVE ONE. It's one of my favorites and I've never seen it over in the UK before for some reason? There are worst things, I'm sure... but it was like 12oz of milk + matcha green tea powder + tapioca balls... but, = deliciousness. Mmm!

I still don't think it will take me over much today, but it was like well after lunch and way before dinner (which I'm going to make here shortly...) so... a snack! GASP!

We're only human... don't stress. I'm trying to let go of my naughtiness... sigh. However, Friday at work I had 5 shortbread cookies. Who eats 5? The end of the week before that, I ate like 6 cupcakes. 6!!! This diet makes me binge like crazy. I'll think, "Oh, one will be all right..." but my body seriously throws me over the edge and screams, "More. More! MORE!!!! Don't be a fool - FEED ME MORE!" and I obey.

I wish my weight loss was better (my usual/average weight is around 118-120 and I'm 114 at the moment) but, gotta get pregnant... just have to do what I have to do. Most people just try to get pregnant and want a baby so I'm trying to stay in that mindset... I just want a baby, boy or girl. I want a sibling for my son and a second child. Although my husband said out of nowhere last night when he got home from work, "Gena, I was just thinking on the ride home from work... no, we HAVE to have a girl!" I was like, "Geez, what the hell? Pressure much, dude?!"

Heeheeh.

[suregena]

Also... I'm feeling crampy in my ovary-areas... not painful... just brooding there... lurking, quietly twinging. Does that even make sense? Hahaha.

I hope I'm revving up... I've not drunk anything since I got home to try to use an OPK again. My creamy CM seems to be getting a slight stretch to it (but breaks before it stretches an inch kind)... so waiting! Hopefully soonish?!

[fish2012]

Leaving work early to get my son as the flood sirens went off again in my town! Prince Charles is in our town today, simultaneously to view the flood damage... er, from a couple weeks ago. How exquisitly oddly timed...

ah was thinking of you when i heard that on the telly, hope you n yours okay x

[suregena]

Thankfully - they were all being overly cautious! It only ever got halfway to the river levels of what it was a couple weeks ago - phew!

However, I got to leave work early on Friday because of the overly cautiousness... so, bonus!

[suregena]

My husband went out and got soy milk for me and I told him to get the real cheap stuff that pretty much doesn't have anything bonus added to it... and he came back with the more pricey stuff that has added calcium and vitamins! I'm scared to drink it... but I did use it in my coffee this morning... I had to have coffee! Should I steer clear for the rest of the day or will it matter that much considering my diet?

[prayforprincess]

I was doing my ht cycle last month so was not on the diet. I was on it earlier this year for 12 weeks, and then went off at the end of March. I just want to get pg and I see so many women with dd's and eat like crap etc. -- why can't I?
The worst part of it is that I have been on and off the diet. And I am still not eating all day long. Like I only drink 1 cup coffee in the am with equal, and then have a tiny yogurt at noon. That's it. But then come 6pm, I make mysself a drink and then have some app's and dinner. And I have been trying not to eat boy foods -- like I'll make a pasta dish, or worst case chicken etc. And I have been gaining weight! Not good.
Its like my not eating all day is keeping my metabolism low that when i do eat at night, it just all packs on.
Sucks.