July 2WW

[Praying4Pink]

Yes, it's that under the arms feeling, especially on the left side. Your plan for next month sounds great!

Thanks Shellbelle! I was kind of hoping there wouldn't be a next month...YKWIM? But if so, so be it. I'm just kind of feeling down and anxious because I don't want a repeat of DS#1. Come on Shellebelle bring one home for the both of us honey!

[Praying4Pink]

Crossing fingers for you ladies! And for those of us with BFNs...see you in August!! Xx

Beadin I guess I will be joining in August...

[BeadinMom]

Beadin I guess I will be joining in August...

At least we'll be in good company, P4P..

[Shellbelle]

Thanks Shellbelle! I was kind of hoping there wouldn't be a next month...YKWIM? But if so, so be it. I'm just kind of feeling down and anxious because I don't want a repeat of DS#1. Come on Shellebelle bring one home for the both of us honey!

Oh, I totally know. I'm trying not to think about "next month" yet because it makes me cry. I didnt test today because I just cant bear to see that stark white test. I really, really thought this was your month, sweetie -- you and Beadin both.

The last part of your post made me lol! I'm givin' her all she's got, P4P!

[BeadinMom]

Even though I'm pretty positive I'm out, I'm still stalking this page waiting for the BFPs!!

[cravingsalt]

Hi ladies! Sorry for being MIA. The witch got me and I've been in a bit of a funk; we're not going to try anymore for now, maybe for good. Hubby took back the "now or never" (which I realized was making my slightly obsessive) and we decided to take 6 months to get our (my?) mind around whether we really should go for a third or whether we should count our blessings at two and move forward. I realized I was spending too much time longing for a girl and had to stop myself and look at my two amazing boys and honestly ask myself if I'm trying for the right reasons. I always dodged the question, even just mentally when just asking myself in my bed at night, whether I wanted another child or if I just wanted a girl. I realized that I totally rushed into #2 (because of gender desire) and while I'm so glad they're close now, it probably would've been nice to enjoy my time with just #1 without trying to fill a void of some sort. I realized that I may be doing it again. I know that I've only been on these boards a few months but my mind has been racked with gender desire for much longer. In the next six months I am going to try not to think about boy vs girl or even about having another, but just enjoy my two little ones and get some perspective. I'll have to see if the baby fever creeps back in. When/if it does, I'll know I am trying for the right reasons, and because it's good for everyone, not just me. I have to tell you as disappointing as it was to have bfn and tear myself away from the excitement and anticipation of ttc, I am at peace when I look at my guys. If I want to have GD let go of me I'm going to have to let go of it. And if I come back, it'll be for the right reasons.

Sorry for the long rambling post, but I wanted to check in, especially with you gals in the 2ww, before I left for a while. You've all been super supportive and wonderful, and it's so nice to meet people who are so generous and positive. I wish you all the bfp's and genders you dream of! I know they're coming.

[Shellbelle]

I'm so glad you posted, because I was beginning to worry about you. We'll miss you so much here! I know this had to be a tough decision for you. Thankful that you've found some peace, and praying that you'll find what's right for all of you.

[BeadinMom]

Craving, I've been wondering about you...
I totally understand what you're saying...it's a part of why I waited so long to try to have another baby. I wanted to enjoy my boys and I can honestly say, I truly have. It's taken me 7 yrs, but I'm ready for a baby again.
I think it's great that you and your DH are on the same page now and you don't feel rushed into anything. That's kind of what my DH and I went through...I was ready, but he wasn't...and now we're at a point where we're both sooooo ready.
I wish you all the very best and I hope that I come back here later....at least after I've conceived (unless you change your mind next month...lol) and watch your journey. I'm so glad we met here and I hope you keep in touch!! XX

[Lassie1982]

hugs craving - I've been thinking of you too..
I'm sorry for how you are feeling And I'm sorry we won't be seeing you around - but I understand where you are coming from.
I wish you every strength, matters of the heart and soul are never easy but you and hubby will get through it and you'll be stronger at the other end.
Really hope you will keep in touch, been great getting to know you - you have been a real inspiration to me and the girls here
All the best xo

[Praying4Pink]

At least we'll be in good company, P4P..

So true Beadin! I'm glad that I have such great support in you ladies!