Another Testosterone Question

[NCBeachyGrl]

Sweetpea, I am going through the same thing right now and I wonder if it's because I'm a little sad about the fact that I might never get a girl! I was at first so excited and thought this is it but than I remember not everyone is going to get what they swayed for and I think it will be me that is the unlucky one. Than I get irritated because I feel ashamed for not being happy with my two awesome boys! It must be hormones or something because I just started af and am just depressed right now. I guess the fact that we can't eat isn't helping matters either! I guess hold steady and try and stay positive! Good luck!

I think this is what EVERY swayer feels like!!! One day I am happy and hopeful, the next I am down in the dumps! Just try to stay positive and remember that it is just a coin flip and whatever coin the lady flips next to you, will not impact your toss!! I will try to tell myself this too!

[atomic sagebrush]

Thanks so much for your reply, Atomic! Everything you said makes a lot of sense, and actually, I did just start my period so I suppose the craziness could be related to the other hormones, like you said. It just seemed that it started a bit early for PMS type moodiness, so that's why I was confused. Hormones are such a tricky thing!

Also, I've been wondering if a feeling of despair/defeat/sadness has anything to do with the possibility that my testosterone may be dropping? I only ask because that's how I've been feeling lately - kind of hopeless that I'll ever conceive a girl, almost a bit sad/depressed, whereas months ago I was all like, "Yeah! I can DO this! How can I get anything BUT a girl if I sway?" - LOL, I was way over-confident (or maybe just excited that I found this site! ). Anyway, do you think these moods/feelings have anything to do with lowered T levels, or am I just depressed? LOL

When we sway, we kinda put E and P into flux regardless of where we are in our cycle, so we can have PMS-like symptoms that don't seem to correlate to our normal cycles (which I believe to be why a lot of ladies have breast pain that does not seem to correlate with cycle.)

I do think your moodiness/feelings of defeat could absolutely have to do with lower T OR altered E and P levels. No doubt about it. Think of PPD and menopause - both are hormonal changes and both can drastically alter mood and even change behavior and thought patterns themselves. I have now seen several people who started off swaying very upbeat and confident and get worn down and defeated and even give up the idea all together. (JJ was going to give up TTC all together if she didn't get pregnant the month she did...result - GIRL)

PS - don't get too hung up on the idea of "testosterone" per se. We really don't KNOW that it is testosterone. It's just a theory, based on personality tests and NOT blood tests and is largely speculation. It may be that those fluctuating levels of E and P are what are really swaying, or some other thing entirely.

[sweetpea]

Thanks ladies, for making me feel not alone! And thanks Atomic, for explaining all of that in greater detail! The whole hormone thing really is tricky and confusing - I guess you just have to keep doing what you know will help sway pink, and trust that the hormonal changes are what needs to happen to help tip the scales a bit! I definitely don't feel like giving up yet, as I haven't even started swaying (next cycle!), but I do feel a bit all over the place emotionally, and even a bit panicky/scared that my sway won't work. Not sure where all this is coming from, as I've been pretty steady in my emotions for the last few months, but like you described above, it could all be hormonal changes.

Ah, well. I have a new plan for dealing with my T worries - in a couple of weeks, I'm going to go completely MIA for my sway, put away the computer, and take up some leisurely, recreational reading. Try and put my mind off of swaying altogether, and just go through the motions. If you don't see me around during my attempt month, that's why!