Becoming a recluse. Don't want to face society.

[cravingsalt]

Oh, Violet. Is this hyperemesis gravidarum? I know Kate Middleton is hospitalized with the same thing, and I've had a friend who has had it. Definitely not your garden variety morning sickness and some people don't understand that when they suggest you have a few crackers and some soda water (!).

I'm so sorry you're going through this- when you're that ill it's impossible to handle social graces and the day-to-day, you just have to get through minute to minute and do what it takes to get you through it. Does your doctor have a plan for you? I know this is so very, very hard. Obviously it will be worth it in the end but it's hard to think about that now in the midst of it. I had kidney stones when I was 32-35 weeks pregnant with ds1 and I knew that if I didn't have my long awaited baby in there I would almost have just wished I was dead. Obviously, I didn't want to die but you can't think straight when your body is being assaulted continuously. I sooo understand where you are coming from and hope that you find some relief.

[Tiggerian]

Oh that really sucks! I experience simillar thing with my DD and I know how horrible it is. Massive kudos to you for being so brave! I don't really know what to say - I wish I had some great big pearls of wisdom, but I don't. I really do feel for you and HOPE that by some miracle it will pass by the 12 week mark and you'll experience a good pregnancy!

[Pangea]

I'm sorry you're going through this. I was the same on both my pregnancies for the first 5 months. When I was about 9 weeks pregnant with DS2 I announced to my whole family that I wished I would have a miscarriage. I feel terrible now when I think about it.
It's so traumatic, but it's worth it in the end. You're right not to put any pressure on yourself to socialise, just take one day at a time.

[LacePrincess]

I'm so sorry you're feeling so rotten. And really sorry that it doesn't go away for you! UGHHHH!!! I'm always sick as a dog too but not all pregnancy like you tend to get, so I can't imagine.

I think you made the right decision to get off FB and distance yourself, and avoid any triggers. You so don't need to hear crap from unsupportive people. I'm also very glad that your DH is helping you. Do you have a close friend/relative that you can whine to? Not DH, but anyone else? Often when I'm struggling with managing my depression/anxiety just talking it out with someone that 'gets it' helps immensely.

If you need to go on your meds, please don't feel guilty. I have managed to keep off mine until third tri for all my boys, but for some reason recently my OCD has completely gone off the rails and I HAD to go back on my med a month or so ago. So it looks like our next pregnancy will be with me on Zoloft throughout. Not preferable, but the alternative is worse, and it's incredibly unfair for my boys to lose mom to my mental illness when it can be prevented.

I hope your little guys are good at playing by themselves and not giving you too much grief! Mommy needs her quiet time right now, that's for sure. Much thoughts and hugs to you.