Due in March/April/May 2013 Roll call!

[mummypink]

Mummypink, don't give anything away. I really think you'll regret it. Have this baby and see what happens. Before I had my 3rd I said I was done. When she got here, I wanted another one. Having 4 kids is AMAZING!!! I'm not trying to push you in that direction. I just want you to wait and see my friend. Maybe you won't want any more. But maybe you will. And if you do, and it's your dd, you want have these things to hand down to her. We love you mummpink!!!

Awww, thanks Threemen, that brought tears to my eyes. So glad I have all you lovely ladies to understand how I feel, sorry for my downer post earlier. I was just feeling so fed up! I think it showed because my ds1 came up to me and gave me a cuddle and said 'I love you mummy' made my heart melt.
I am getting excited to meet my new little man, I can't wait to see what he looks like and get those gorgeous newborn cuddles. This gd is so weird, on the one hand I'm excited about meeting my new little man and on the other I feel sad I'm not getting the daughter I keep dreaming about!

Can't remember if I've said this in another post but I've decided to do rainbow colours this time for bedding etc as I am so bored of boys stuff! My mum is knitting me some lovely blankets, and I've been picking out brightly coloured boys stuff which is helping me to get excited about it all.

[ThreeMenAndALAdy]

Mummypink I get the same feelings. I'm happy one day, and the next day I'm sad that we won't be adding another girl to our family. Hopefully those days will start to fade soon. But we're always here and you're never a downer...your real, and we love you for it.

[mummypink]

Thank you! I love you all too

Spinning - I am stalking for an update and have my fingers firmly crossed for you still. xx

[spinningmadly]

Ugh I'm dreading this. I know shes going to say boy. Maybe it's better to not know

[homebirthing princess]

Thinking of u spinning, I hope u hear the news u want hun xxx

[ThreeMenAndALAdy]

I hope to God you have a phone Spinning, and update asap. I've had a nervous belly for you all morning. Praying for pink!!!!

[coocoobananas]

Just when I start to think I'm doing ok with my gd I get a day where I just feel so sad about it again.

We've been doing some decorating and I've been sorting loads of things out, I have a suitcase that I store summer/ winter bits in and I also had some nice dresses that are too small for me but I was saving because I thought I could use the fabric to make a lovely dress for my own daughter one day. Made me remember that my wedding dress is being stored in my mums attic too. I've put the dresses from the case into a bag for the charity shop because it just made me feel so sad and cross to see them. I feel like I may as well do the same with my wedding dress too, what's the point in saving it.
I've also got a box full of baby girls clothes that a friend gave me just in case we ever have a girl, I'm just going to charity shop it as it is too painful to keep hold of.

I just feel so sad and cross, I know I will love my new little man to pieces and I truly feel blessed to be lucky enough to have three children but it doesn't take the hurt away that there is a good chance I will never have a daughter.

I'm still not sure whether number 4 would be an option for us in the future, I go from having days where I think no way we have to stop at three, to other days where I think maybe in a couple of years if we are in a position where another baby is a possibility then I shouldn't rule it out. Then I have days like today where I think what is the point?! I'd be over 35 so the risks of having complications would go up and I'd probably have another boy anyway.

I dreamt last night that I had another scan and it was a girl which is probably why I feel so cross and fed up today.

I so hope you come back with good news Spinning, I am saying lots of prayers for you and keeping everything crossed! xxxx

Mummypink big hugs!!!! I was there yesterday! I have more good days than good, but those bad days hurt a lot!!
Why why why??????? I know exactly how you feel it will change when they get here, I hold onto that!

[ynwa]

Stalking spinning:.)

[mummypink]

Thanks Coocoo, sending you a hug right back. xxx

[spinningmadly]

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