Going to be negative for a minute.

[Atsaukina1]

I did my best w/o doing things I thought were too much for me and I knew that it was still 50/50 either way. it is out of my hands. I will get what I am meant to get. Maybe i will sway it in my favor 55/45 just a lil lol. I think if you go into w/ that mind set then you will be fine either way.

[hplnvf03]

Thank you for all your honest posts. My husband is so support and we talked a lot last night. I can't wait to meet this baby!

[my4leafclover]

I can relate, but on a whole different level. I went HT and after 5 cycles, still no dd. My 1st cycle I was over stimmed and all of my eggs were bad because of it. Second cycle was microsort and 5 probe fish. I had 3 normal girls but that is only testing those 5 chromosomes and they were weak. I implanted all 3 and bfn. Three more cycles and only one normal girl( and she didn't quite look right either to me). In the end we came full circle we decided to give our boy a chance. I actually put back the gitl and 2 boys, one of which was a strong hatching blast and I am 99% sure the little one I am carrying. I am happy to be able to have a healthy(hopefully) little one at 40, but very sad and even mad at the universe at times. I see all of these people with dd, some who use and abuse the privelage(sp) and wonder why not me? I tried as hard as I possibly could but was too little too late. I envy all of the 20 somethings coming into motherhood and all of the information, science and options they will have.